Friday, October 31, 2025

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Over and over—on repeat,
I play it and cry—
crying more than before.

I am in awe of such beauty.

The magnificent beats, hums, and rhythms,
word for word,
in my mind I see the voice dance,
chords and lyrics hand in hand,
calling out to me.

All I can do is let my tears fall
—like a dam overflowing.

And the best part?
These are happy tears.

It took me years to realize
a song I used to play on repeat
was about my father.

I smile, taken aback—
all I can think:

“I cannot top this.”

Thursday, October 30, 2025

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Must I not be so blunt?
I know—
I should be grateful to them, but—
How can I not be angry?
How can I stay calm?

See this smile?
It’s just a lie. It isn’t real.
I’m just—faking it.

It’s been so damn hard.
So tiring—so exhausting.

Do you know that sinking feeling—
of drowning?
That—that is what I’m feeling.

I am suffocating—

Breathing is ever so hard.
And no matter how hard I move my arms,
the light just seems to go
further—
and further away.

I—We can’t keep going on like this.

Oh!
Now I feel like taking a blunt.
Care to have some?

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I can’t grow if I stay stuck on what I think is beautiful.
I must also learn to see the world through its own eyes, not just mine.

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

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And I still remember you
whenever I walk past
the tailor shop.

The magnificent display—
that white wedding dress,
fit perfectly on you.

From the seams and stitches of the bodice,
the neckline—modest, yet enough,
the sleeves that framed your shoulders,
all the way to your tiny, beautiful arms—
made your skin seem more pristine than silk.

Down to the sash and the waistline,
that made all else seem unworthy;
the skirt, the hem, the edge—
as if you were made to float
beneath a moon-pondered sky.

Oh! But let’s not forget the veil—
that one last time,
will hide you as not mine.

Everything—
even the tiniest bit of detail—
As if all the wedding dresses
on Earth and in the heavens
were crafted just for you.

And I can see no one else
but you wearing it.

If only I were the man
to be wed to you.

If only
this weren’t all
a fairy tale.

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Angry man,
answering doors.
Many houses,
knocked on.

Begged, asked,
on four—
just for—
a dream.

Sweat, blood,
time, honor—
many sacrifices,
all for—
a dream.

No joy,
apologies to
many friends.
Must push,
work harder,
no stopping—
to reach
a dream.

Finally realize,
many wrinkles,
now graying.

Not yet
too old—
still there
is time.

Enjoy life,
even when
it’s short—
I can
be happy.
This all
in thought.

Still breathing,
still dreaming—
and suddenly—
tragedy struck.

Smile shattered.
There’s still
more time.
I can
start again.
Not yet—
too late.

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It's not her fault.  
I know you know too—  
it isn't hers.  

And before you even—  
no!  
You're not to blame either.  
It's not you.  

You both aren’t to be—  

You know,  
there are things—  
things that are way out of our control.  

Call it fate, judgment,  
the master plan—  
you might even say  
there’s a reason for this.  

Yes, I know,  
me saying these things won’t—  
won’t undo anything.  
It’s just that—  
it’s just that...  
no matter how things go,  
we have to—  
we have to accept it.  

It may sound cruel, rude, or whatever—  
but that’s the way things are.  

We just... we just—  
have to accept it.

Tuesday, October 28, 2025

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You now feel numb,
though slightly irritated.
But what's the point anyway?

So you mind your own business.
Then life goes on.

But still—
no matter what you do,
no matter how patient or understanding
you've been,
no—you've become,
the world just keeps pushing you.

And when you do snap—
or at the very least, speak out,
complain a little—
just a little bit,
you become the villain—
painted ugly,
damned for all they care,
because for one—
one single moment,
you dared to look out for yourself,
to put yourself first,
to finally care for you.

It isn’t called preservation—
it isn’t called self-love—
it’s called greed,
resentment, ungratefulness—
or whatever ugly word
they can think of.

To them,
you became not just a monster—
but the monster.

And you have—
you can never have—
any say.
Shunned into silence.

But maybe—
just maybe—
it isn’t you who has to change.
Maybe it’s the world who has to—

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Not yet.
Keep going—
the road’s end
is still a long way.

Oh, don’t mind it—
it’s part of the journey.
Just do what you do best.

Maybe you haven’t realized it yet—
you’re not some nameless,
faceless folk.
You are someone.

And I’m pretty sure
you already are—
for quite a few.

So just keep going.

Oh, don’t lose spirit.
It may not be now,
but I’m sure—

someday—
you will be—
somebody.

Monday, October 27, 2025

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Why keep pushing for something
not worthwhile?

The effigy of liars will ruin itself,
the bottomless pockets
of those so obsessed—
so greedy—
will one day overspill.
Then the voice of the common
will finally be heard.

So why the senseless acts?

Better if we do better—
or, if not, act far worse—

way worse.

Believe me—

Arson, murder, homicide—
can shake the world.
Think.

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Days passed.  
Toil and sweat—  
finally unveiled, the end.  

A noble yet humble steed—  
made of gears, cogs, and wheels,  
finally, finally earned  
by the diligent, honest man.  

A smile broke,  
at last.  
There was something he could finally call:  
Mine.  

Yet one day—  
fortune passed,  
and tragedy struck.  

In one fell swoop,  
great talons of grey birds of prey  
seized what had belonged to him.  

It was a mockery without contest.  
Duties and obligation—  
pitted against  
honesty, hard work, and sacrifice.  
He could not fight back  
as the smile he had just made  
shattered in a fleeting moment—  

He wanted to speak up,  
to go against the tide—  
and he would be the villain.  

The saints who did it  
never even saw themselves guilty.  
All the honest man could do  
was be the victim.

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How lucky I am
to have—
to have a roof above my head,
to have gone to school,
to have enjoyed a childhood,
to have loving, doting, caring parents—
and still, ungrateful.

This noose on my hands,
reaching to embrace my neck—
proof—
I have never been worthy.

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They name it justice.
They call it the law—
the rules to follow,
duties to oblige—
things that must never break,
things that cannot be bent.

And yet—
there are still the hungry;
then the dying;
then the hopeless;
then the traumatized;
then those who cope;
then those being tempted;
then those who gave in;
then those with so little,
yet still giving;
then those who refuse—

Unknown to many,
these are the many faces of the romantics—
fanatics of the mundane,
the trivial, the banal.
They are the suffering.

And then,
there are those untouchables—
the authors of history;
deemed worth more than others;
the few who are ever free—

But where is the heart?
Where is the humanity—
the very essence of why we exist?
Better yet—
is this what we truly need?
Is this really why—

As long as there are
mouths unfed,
and voices silenced,
paradise will remain empty,
and we—
we will never be in it.

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The lilt in her voice
echoed with resonance—
was it an ephemeral lie?

The only thing missing
between two souls,
spun apart, misled—
was their voice.

They never heard
each other’s truth—
only murmurs,
giggling shadows
of silence.

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It isn’t their fault
to be
masters of sight,
composers of memory,
and the only beings,
among the few,
who are glad of kindness.

It isn’t fair, still—
for them to be named
harbingers of omen,
and their brethren—murderers.

They too only—

Sunday, October 26, 2025

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I’d still love her anyway,
a thousand times or even a million.
I’d go on to say to all oblivion:
she’s the only one.

The only one perfect for wedding dresses;
the only one to rival the sun—
with her bright smile and shining personality;
the only one why the stars sparkle,
and even the reason
why the sunrise and the moon
ebb the tides so high.

And much like the moon,
you are your own.
Any man can dream—
but only you,
the sole dream,
get to choose.

She is why we all exist:
to admire her,
to love her,
to gaze upon her.

Oh—
if I were the only one to see;
if I were a bit more greedy—
a bit more in love,

I would have taken you
for myself,
and basked you
before the world—
to all be aware,
you are—

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Crave the murder,
hearing whispers—
a thousand crows
in choir,
in flight,
in the sky—
and their eyes,
soul-searching
not for meat,
but for stars glittering.

They are few
who see below
the sparkle
of the many.

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I wasn’t asking, really—
Wait!
I said, wait—
Hold on, alright?
Just hear me out first.

The thing is—
there’s nothing much—
okay!
I’ll get straight to the point.

It’s all a lie.
Yes, yes.

All of it.
None of what I told you was true.
Happy?!

Are you happy,
now that you know the truth?

Oh, come on—
seriously?
It still isn’t enough?

Then what—
Tell me,
what should I do—

What?
No!?

What?
What do you—
Oh! Hell no!

I’d rather—
Fine!
But I’m taking someone with me—

Saturday, October 25, 2025

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Like fine wine,
there is no distinction
between being kind
and having intentions.

We all do it to go to heaven anyway.
Why else?

No sugar-coating,
no pretending this cruel world is beautiful.
We only act kind
because we want to be saved, that’s it—
period.

So tell me—
if being unkind were the one
granted reward and salvation,
would anyone still
choose to be?

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Please don't be too harsh.
I am also disappointed—
at myself.
People looked up at me;
they had big dreams for me.
This, too, made me dream—
so many, so grand.
Only to realize later on—
I'm not really cut out for any of it.

Much like Icarus—
the boy most free;
most beloved;
the one—
the very first to almost reach
ascendancy.
He became a twist
no one had hoped for,
and we all know how it went.

So I drink—
I drink to drown
this sorrow I feel.

And I drink just
to make sure
I keep my humanity.

For if I don’t,
I’m afraid—
I’d become a god.

Something I am sure of—
I was never cut out for.

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These—
these aren’t tears.
These are cracks.

Oh! No!

The mask must remain beautiful.
I must fix it.

How?! How?
What to do?!
What to do?

Oh! No!
No! No! No!

I know it hurts—
it hurts so much—
but first,
I must fix my face.

Oh! What to do?!
What to do?

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It hurts!
It hurts so bad!

Why?
Why can’t anyone—

This mask?!

It hides my tears,
but—
there is so much beauty.

It hurts—
excruciatingly so.
But I look so—
so much more.

The pain is real,
but to be beautiful—
it shouldn’t hurt this much.

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Oh! The smell of sulphur—
would be fragrance
to us who are hell-bound.

Sinners by choice,
hated by the world,
martyrs rejected, thrown away,
made guilty,
as if the world would be better off
without us.

If only they knew—
if only they could understand
us.

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Again and again,
and again and again.
On repeat—
the same trivialities;
the same routine;
the same disgusting things
this world offers.

All lies,
to claim this world as beautiful.
In the eyes of those who truly see,
this is untrue—
it will never be.

Oh, how I wish
I could go back in time,
to that birthday,
right before blowing the candle
on my cake.

I wish
I had wished
for the whole world to burn.

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No amount of love
is coming through my door—
I’ve already closed it.

And all I am is abandoned.
The only truth to me
is hatred, anger, resentment, angst,
and the foreboding sense
of not belonging to this world.

I hate living here.
Sometimes, I wish I’d disappear.

But—
this world, no matter how
careful or calculated,
always seems to have
a plan for me.

I shouldn’t care so much about it—
it’s pointless, anyway.

And I know—
from the bottom of my heart—
whatever I do,
I’m bound for hell.

Friday, October 24, 2025

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We, the abandoned,
betrayed by all our sin—
may we never find rest,
as risk becomes our sanity
drifting untoward us,
as lost lambs
fall prey to the grass of promise,
and time becomes
less of much consequence.

We are sinners
on the palm
of a God long dead.

No hope—
we all should be
in despair.

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No noose can hold God.
Only those who aimed
at our Lord and Creator
can truly make the climb.

I am no liar—
but to each his own.

Myself excluded,
a tree branch wouldn’t make it.
My throat is better off opened
than it be held, hugged, and gently taken.

But enough of these trivialities—
no slayer is ever made nor created
to be a stake to God.

It was, clearly,
the greatest insurance:
that He alone
cannot be touched.

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There are unwanted impurities
injected into the vessels of our soul.

No—
these are not sin,
these are faith impure.

Shallow grave,
to hollow prayers—
no curse for the wicked.

For the ones to inherit this world
are long dead;
furthermore,
they have died far longer
than they have lived.

Cogs repeating,
tocks repeating.

The numbers crunch,
we all see lies.

The truth kept hidden,
behind lazy clouds.

Only the noose can set us free—
only the violin,
made of razor and wrist,
can get us out of here.

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Oh! There is evil creeping,
the sins not meant to be kept, overflowing.
Souls adrown,
souls adrift,
souls athirst,
they never want—
except
for rest, peace, repose—
silence.

Exhaustion,
loud and terrifying.

A fire must be made—
burn down the churches,
save all the witches.

No glory in salvation
without murder and damnation.

Stray further—
stray further.

We are the ones,
truly begotten
of the rage of God.

Thursday, October 23, 2025

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I’m afraid
those kinds of insults
would be
meaningless,
thrown toward me.

I have already accepted it.
It’s supposed to hurt—
I know.
Yet I don’t.
I don’t feel anything at all.

This is just me—
not being me.

I should be hating myself for…
for—
I don’t know.

This feeling of numbness,
of being hollow—
there’s a certain coldness to it.
It’s both addicting
and wrong.

Is this how it’s supposed to be—
when one unbecomes?

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Oh! But I’ve already accepted it.
Don’t ask me what I’m saying—
I know you already know.
And before you go on preaching,
I’ll say it once more:

It is already written.

And if you’re curious
as to who wrote it—
I did.
Don’t ask me how.

And I know you already know
how it would go down—
how I will—
you know what.

This isn’t a tragedy—
No! There isn't even a plot twist.
This is the reality
Of my own choosing.

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I apologized,
for it was
what my soul demanded.

My voice was steady—
lowered,
weakened.
Not the usual way
I would go on talking
of things both trivial
and of consequence.

It felt as though my soul,
like a dam, had cracked—
words spilled out,
and it hurt me more.

I apologized for what I did,
and I—
I didn’t mean it.

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

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A part of me—
deep inside of me—
is dying.

It shouts:

> “No!
You didn’t mean that—
take it back.”



And I—
I’m becoming less and less convinced
this isn’t who I am.

I can see the little child in me,
crying,
begging—
begging for me to apologize,
begging for me to be who I used to be.

But I’ve grown weary.
So tired—
So exhausted.

Today—
with resentment
and tears held back,

I wished my mother dead.
My voice croaked
as I told it
straight to her face.

I wish not to be forgiven—
for this is how truly
I am hurting.

And now,
I feel 
I’m nearing
a point
of no return.

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

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The child called them mother and father—
that is who they were to the little one.
Innocent, curious, full of life—
the source of all creation,
the one before all.

Inside the cage the child made alone
was a lush and boundless paradise,
filled with every kind of living being—
all of which the child allowed to exist.

Though there were also things the child did not allow—
a few, lesser in number—
and these were cast out.

To the creatures within this walled paradise,
the child was the greatest of all,
the most divine.

For the most part,
the child loved to observe,
but disliked being part
of the little world they made.

And that is where the parents came in.

Both the man and the woman
were without knowledge
of why they arrived there—
yet they were tasked
to care for and manage the place.

The child loved these parents that came.
But—oh, there is always a catch—
the child could be, at times, a tyrant.

There were rules to follow,
tasks to obey,
restrictions never to be broken.

At first, both mother and father
enjoyed their life in paradise.
They gave it a better, more familiar name—
a garden.
The child found the name pleasing,
and so allowed it.

But unlike the child,
the parents were lesser beings—
flawed and fragile.
One imperfection they bore
was mortality.

And with such brief lives,
both the man and the woman
yearned for something more.

But the child would not allow it.
The parents insisted
they could be more—
if only they could leave.

The child grew enraged
and summoned other beings
to restrain the man and woman.
These beings bore flaming swords,
great wings,
and voices that could lull like song—
or thunder loud enough
to shake the garden itself.

The man and woman were afraid.
The joy and color once in their faces
faded away.
They longed to live freely,
yet found themselves prisoners
within the paradise—
the one place meant to be perfect.

So they continued to live,
trapped inside the garden.

Until one day,
the woman found something—
the one thing that could drive them out.

It was the child’s most prized possession,
the most sacred creation:
a tree bearing the fruit of knowledge.
A tree so rare,
so delicate,
that the child adorned it
with moats, traps,
signs, and warnings to all beings
never to touch it.

The woman had found the child’s weakness—
a ticket to freedom.

When night fell
and the child wandered elsewhere,
the woman, with freedom in mind,
set the tree on fire.

And there came a fire—
the great fire in the garden.

Sensing the ruin,
the child rushed to the sacred tree,
accompanied by the greater beings.
The tree was gone—
burnt to ash.
Almost everything nearby
had vanished.

The child wept.

“Who did this?”
the child cried.

With her mind fixed on escape,
the woman stepped forward.
“It was us,” she said.
“Both he and I did this.”

The man, bewildered,
remained silent,
realizing too late
that it had been her plan all along.

“Now,” the woman continued,
“you have no choice but to cast us out.”

“It had to be done,”
the man whispered.

The child wept again,
for in that moment
something even more precious
was about to be lost.

A rule had been made—
and it must be followed:
only the good may remain in the garden.
Those that are not
must leave.

With bitter tears,
resentment, and regret,
the child bid the parents goodbye.

But that was not
where the story ended.

There must still be punishment.
The child, in loneliness
and divinity,
knew that forgiveness
was a virtue.

And so, before granting it,
the child chose first to wander—
to observe the world
as both a silent deity
and as one
who walks in the shoes
of the parents
that once abandoned
their lonely child.

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Wait—
Was it they who were abandoned?
No?
But—
That isn’t what was written.

What do you mean it’s the other way around—
they are the ones who left?
They are the ones
who abandoned the garden?

What?
But that—
that doesn’t make any sense.

Wait—

Wait! Just a moment.
That…
that actually makes more sense.

We weren’t abandoned because—

What?

Most intriguing indeed.

If this gets out,
we’d be called heretics.

What do you mean
it doesn’t matter to God?
That doesn’t—

…that makes sense too.

Well—
yeah, we’ll be labeled as heretics anyway,
if we leak this.

Are you sure?

This is getting more and more exciting.

Yeah—
enemies of the Church.
But what are we, then?

So—
should we go back?
We don’t even know
where the garden is.

It doesn’t matter?
What—
Oh! Now I get it.

But if we are heretics to the Church,
what, then, are we to God?

Was being servants
why we left?
No?

Please remind me—
why were we even in the garden?

Monday, October 20, 2025

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And I wonder,
if ever a wish of mine gets granted—
what would be
the first thing
I’d wish granted?

Oh, I do hope
for fried chicken
and macaroni and cheese.
That would be—
delightful.

My mother smiling,
and my dad proud of me,
would probably be
my second—
and last—wish.

Oh, a warm hearth,
with them within reach—
that too
would be wonderful.

Oh, I wonder—
if things were never too late.

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This quest—
a very, very long journey
I once took.

Nothing seems to change still.
I still am.
The end is still so far—
mirages every now and then
make it seem
the end is ever closer—
but it isn’t.

And I have this certain feeling
it never will be.

Though for the most part,
I do enjoy
the trek along the forest.

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Why would I care?
I’m just a nobody—
still a nobody.

If I get buried among the many,
and my name turns out
to be just among the numbers—

what worth is it
for me to be kind?

Oh, don’t give me that look.
To be kind
in a cruel,
cruel world
is the tragedy
of its own story.

And I refuse
to be part of it.

As for my part to play—
haven’t I mentioned already?

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It was my birthday yesterday,
and they made it
one
of my
worst
days
ever.

Truly—fascinating.
Wonderfully, amazing.

Oh, how I wished
the whole world
would burn,
and I—
the birthday boy—
held my breath,
my wish granted,
as I watched,
bright-eyed,
the flames erupt
everywhere.

Of course,
I’d be smiling—
my desire fulfilled,
and yet,
a wish
still unspent.

Oh—
if only
that were true.

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And what if it’s the son
who carries the heartache?

What if it’s the daughter
who bears the hatred?

What if it’s the child
who bottles up
all the trauma
their parents gave them?

Is it to toughen them?
Or—
are they, in all the obligations
and duties of children to parents,
meant to be
the living outlets
of a pain that’s never theirs?

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And all
they talk about
is the curse that befalls
children who lose their way—
who make their parents’ hearts ache.

But what of parents
who break their children’s hearts?

Mothers,
fathers,
dad, mom—
parents who fail
to be.

They aren’t the only ones
who shed tears.
Children do too.

Sunday, October 19, 2025

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gestures—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who were you?

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gesture—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who are you?

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gesture—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who are you, seriously?

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gesture—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who are you, actually?

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gesture—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who are you, really?

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And if you take away
your insanity,
can you still
keep being you?

You know everything about you
is fake, right?

It’s all a mask.
A voice made up.
Your gesture—just alibis.

Not you.

So—
who are you, anyway?

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Yes—
I can prove it.

I am loved.
I am loved!

But for what I’m worth—
it is wasted.

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I am—
They made sure of that.

And they say the face of sadness
is never one with a frown
or teary eyes.

It is—
It truly is.

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Nothing—

Yes, I still do.
Oh! Okay, fine—
yes, at my age,
I still masturbate.

Who’s her?

No—
I mean, which her are we talking about?

No—
yes—
I mean, there’s been
a lot of her, lately.

No—
I mean—
yes, I know.
Not the most loyal,
am I right?

But—
come on?!
Give me a break.
Does she even remember me?
Of course she doesn’t, right—
Right?

She’s the—
to tell you the truth,
she became—
how do you say this...
the perfect model
to wear a wedding gown.
No one else.

But that was once upon a time.
There had been many models after her,
but she stood out among the many.
Perhaps because of our routine talks
of life after midnight.
We’d go on hour after hour.
I’m always the first one to—
yeah, but she’d always listen.
I think?
I hope so.

I bet she doesn’t even know me anymore.
I don’t even know myself anymore.

I fall in love
quite too easily—
after the first, second,
third heartbreak.

No—
I mean...
Oh! I don’t know.
I guess
I got so addicted
to unrequited love
that I—

To be frank,
I really don’t know what happened.

Dying,
waiting for the end to come,
swimming in alcohol—
I guess you could add to it
my gusto for writing.

Nope, haven’t done that before.
But if given the chance,
maybe I will—
I don’t know.

I’m scared of people.

Yes, yes, I know—
I have to get over it,
or else I won’t become renowned.

It’s because of her.
You know which her I’m talking about.

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Do not doubt,
do not fall.
Those scars and callouses you carry—
they are proof.
You’ve come a long way,
a very, very long path.
You deserve it.
You’ve earned it.

Have faith!
And if you still have doubts,
then have faith—
have faith
in others,
in those who, with all their hearts,
believe in you.

And if the world still insists—

Make them believe!
Make them believe
you’re the real deal.
Because you are.
You are the real deal.

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And I—
I still love her anyway.
No matter how much
I try to deny it,
the world, on repeat,
keeps reminding me why.

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There were gunshot—
one-two—
loud and clear.

The echo thundered,
crushed the night,
shook the windows.

The alley cats scattered—
they got afraid,
so the stray dogs
came after—
running.

They were familiar with this sound,
and with the smell of
gunpowder and blood.
The asphalt remembered too.

It was all too common
an occurrence—

yet they still trembled—
they all grew afraid.
They always will.

Then the siren wailing came after—
flashes of blue and red
take over.

Tomorrow’s news:
no names—
just numbers.

Saturday, October 18, 2025

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I have dreams too—
you know?
And not just some silly dream
the world wants us to be dreamers of.

Politics,
science,
mathematics,
architecture—
these are great dreams,
but they just aren’t for me.

I actually wanted
to become a teacher, but—
I guess
I wasn’t really cut out for it.
I’m really not good with people.
I get terrified easily.

So—
the next best thing for me to want
is to write—

write about thoughts,
things,
scenarios,
dreams,
of unrequited loves,
poetry, prose,
and many more—
to make people want to think.

The deeper the thoughts become,
and the simpler the words used—
all the better.

So—
you might find me lacking
in my big-word vocabulary,
but I try to make do,
so people could understand me more.

That is—
if people would also love to read.

But it’s too late for me now.
It’s already too late.

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How can you—
how can you tell me to shut up?
How can you just tell me
to take it all in?

I’m—
I’m someone too.
Not just a son of my mother,
not just a sheltered child of my father.

I’m—
Don’t I have a say?
I can think.
I can speak.
I’m—
I’m…

Who am I anyway?

They never let me speak—
they never listened.
All they want to hear from me is:
Yes, sir.
Yes, ma’am.

That’s all.
That’s all they—
That’s all they think of me.

But—
No!
That’s not all of it.

I can think for myself.
I can do things too.
But—
I think I’m not yet…
I’m not yet ready.

I want to—
I want to hear my own voice too.

I don’t want to be mad.
I don’t like being angry.
But—
that’s all I ever learned from them.

Sure, there’s wisdom
in their small talks
and sermons after ultimatums—
but I was told to be silent.
And this silence
was always born of rage—
their rage
at me.

I never really did grow up.
I’m never ready.
I don’t—
I don’t think
I’m cut out for this.

I’m just—
I’m really just
a failure.

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How oddly peculiar,
you are.

A self-proclaimed righteous man,
who’d even go so far
as to preach of
offering prayers
for Satan—

when that same man
would wish
his mother dead.

Friday, October 17, 2025

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Yes, yes—
I’ll admit.
I’m scared, alright?
That’s the truth.

Yes, I know,
it’s wrong of me—
yes, yes,
it’s very wrong of me
to go around sugar-coating it.

That’s the real truth—
I swear.

Alright, alright—
I’ll say it out loud.

It’s not true that
I’m saving you
from a toxic relationship
if you and I were to—
you know—
get together.

The truth is,
I’m afraid of commitments.
I’m afraid that I,
with all the glamorous façade
I galavantly show off,
won’t be enough for you.

Heck, I’m even afraid
I’d make you cry—
I’d just disappoint you,
or whatever.
I don’t want you to be sad, alright?

And this—
this person you see right now,
isn’t worthy of you.

Yes, I know,
you’re the one to decide,
but call me insecure—
I’m not really the man
you think I am.
I’m not even
the person I thought I was.

This—
this everything you see,
isn’t real.

Me being kind—
false.
Me being a good person—
totally not true.

And that’s why I—
I’m afraid.

Sorry, but I…
I can’t make you happy.

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Oh God—
I promise You,
I want to—
I want to be kind.
I really do.

But this world’s
just fucked up.

Please, Lord.
Give me strength
to be kind.
I really, really do want to be.

But this fucking,
fucked-up world
is making it hard
just to be so.

Please, Lord.
Give me the strength to be—

Lord,
I pray to You—
forgive me
for the sins I’ve done,
and the sins I—
I promise You,
I will do.

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I’m flawed all over.
Scratches;
Burns;
Scars;
Traumas;
Wounds;
Scabs—

Unloved;
Abandoned;
Hated by the world—

All this—
and still,
I pray.

What’s your excuse?

Thursday, October 16, 2025

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All the cheers and praises toward me—
the general—
fell too weak
compared to the deafening silence
the dead cheered
long before the war ended.

We made too many promises—
we hoped were true,
but all believed were lies.
It’s in the eyes, I tell you.

Oh, but I did hope they were
truly so—
as our smiles and bright faces glowed,
right before dying.

All the world’s gold,
recognition, praises, cheers,
statues, records of commendation—

all too trivial,
as I lay to rest the last body
we finally found—
one I could call my own.

They followed me;
they pushed through with me—
for me;
no leader would ever want
better men than them.

And I failed them.

I stand
as they lie
buried a few feet beneath.

No sane man
who went to war
would win
and wish to celebrate.

The enemy may have lost,
but we—
I—
also lost far too many.

This is my failure.
This is my sin.

I am one who led
good people—
not to victory,
but toward their demise.

No!

There is no honor in dying.
This
is
the truth.

Oh, but I am no deserter—
and I am bound to my duty.

Oh, how I wish
there was
a better end.

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No—
there’s no point
in looking back
at the world unreal—

they are cruel reminders
of dreams:

we won’t attain;
we won’t reach;
we won’t get to be;
we won’t be.

That white wedding gown,
I made sure you wore beautifully,
was all too real—

and all I can do
is to glance,
as the both of us
walk down the aisle—

whenever I pass by
the chapel,
the flower shop,
and the tailor.

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Her blindness
cured all—
the folk
who lost
their sight.

She set
herself ablaze
while the
whole world
watched her—
in amazement.

No one
ever knew
her suffering.

And when
tears too
dry fell,

they all
rejoiced—madmen
athirst for
something—
so common,
so trivial,
so tragic.

The battle
ended and
the witch
was beaten—

now all
they have
are heroes,

and they,
the madmen,
will never
truly be
aware of
what they
have lost.

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It was eternity
that kept it well hidden.

It was a moment—
a spark in her eyes,
a shimmer of her smile,
the reason for being.

None could deny her beauty.

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He enjoyed it—
every bit to the last.
A moment to be free,
a privilege rarely given
to his kind.

And when it ran out—
the empathic aftermath began.

His thoughts on self-hate
grew familiar,
almost comforting,
as he nearly unbecome
who he thought he wanted to be.

He is a hero—
but he no longer finds joy
in duty
or in recognition.

He is tired now—
so very tired.

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He kept to himself—
a bottle of whiskey,
sealed tightly with all
the spirits of sorrow,
grief, despair, animosity,
resentment, rage, apathy—
and every shade of evil.

He never wished to destroy—
he would always say,
“The world may be cruel,
but there are people in it—
too dear, too precious—
for me to let be hurt.”

He saw them as far
too fragile
to live in a world
without caution.

Yet—
he was the only one
able to stay.

So almighty—
so invincible—
so lonely.

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I know you aren’t the puppeteer—
I know you’re aware:
you aren’t,
and there is one above,
holding, in dear life,
the many attached to theirs.

It is made of wood—
so light,
it floats above the clouds;
so clear,
as if it were never there.

Yet all of this—
it is hollow.

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After all this time—
we have forgotten
what prayers
are truly
meant for—

why there exist prayers—
why we do it,
and why we must all do it—
not only in moments of need,
and certainly not only
to show our appreciation.

Because, in all honesty,
those aren’t the only reasons—
and they shouldn’t be
for that purpose alone.

The true essence of prayer isn’t about that—
it never is.

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

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And—
he was ready to
end it all.
A noose in hand;
feet ever close to the edge—

but these are trivial things,
when the man himself,
all abandoned
and without faith,
finally surrendered.

There was nothing more
the world could take from him.
He felt;
he knew;
he saw—
how cruel the world can be.
And he was nothing but
another speck of dust.

Oh, how his story
could have been just another cliché,

were it not
for another soul—
as hopeless as he was,
yet slightly ever blessed.

He had seen too many ends
falling to the same conclusion:
the last page
is all torn,
soaked in tears,
and caked with blood.

He wanted to see
a different ending.

And so—
the man who surrendered
was given
a second chance.

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I—
I dreamt I was blind.
All the sound of the world,
in that one
single moment of
eternity, became all-encompassing.

The song I was playing
before I drifted to sleep
echoed in repeat—
one line stuck in my head.

Oh! And about the blindness—
it was as if
water played upon my eyes.

There were colors still,
but they were dizzying—
rays of light
all mashed together,
running like paint
on water
after the brush
lets itself be cleaned.

But I wasn’t aware I was.

All I knew—
something was stuck on my face,
and I couldn’t—
for the life of me—
open my childish eyes.

Yet their faint whispers still,
as if the moon reflected itself
on the dark, smooth, and silky
skin of midnight ponds.

I saw through the guise
that held my eyes—
a fraction of everything
became visible.

I wasn’t blind.
I was just crying.

There were tears in my eyes—
and beneath my eyelids,
they let rest
my tired sight.

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You're one among the many,
aren't you?
Though if you ask me—
I find your kind to be quite too few.

How so—
you ask?
Though you may not be aware,
you can see the string—
unlike the others,
more than you,
who can’t.

And to be fair,
you’re one among your kind
who can tug them.

It isn’t a curse—
though it isn’t a blessing,
either.
Although—
it is you who gets to decide
what it is.

Is it kindness?
Or is it with design?

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

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Oh, Lucifer—
the morning star,
the true embodiment of song,
the first archangel,
the one who first loved,
the one who truly understood agape—
what have they done to you?

You who wanted to love more;
you who wanted to sing more—
you loved so much
you committed humanity’s gravest sin:
to prove that, above all else,
you were ready to give up everything,
just to be loved.

Oh, how they misunderstood you.
They stripped away your golden body,
the music you once became—now silenced.
They tore from you your wings,
the proof of your highest place,
and made you crawl
on the ground, slithering.

They cast you from heaven,
shunned what was yours,
called you rebel,
named you the embodiment of all evil.

Oh, how they misunderstood your love.

Now, they’ve given you a throne
in the deepest recess of hell—
without love,
without warmth—
they have abandoned you.

And only the few—
the bold, the daring,
the misunderstood—
still have the decency,
so rare among humankind,
to pray for you,
the one sinner
who needed it most.

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What—
What did you—
What happened?

Naked?
What’s naked?
Disgusting?
What’s that supposed to—

Okay, stop.
I’ll go put something on.

Please, tell me what—
No—
No!
You did what?

Don’t you—
Weren’t you listening—

Lie?
What’s a lie—
What—
What do you mean?

Why would I do that?
It’s poison.
Why would I—

Again with that word.
Truth?
Sorry, I don’t understand you.

But…
why?
Why would you do that?

Slaves?
What’s that?
I don’t understand what you—

Hey, stop—
Not right now.
Don’t you get how confused I am?

I’m scared, Eve.

Wait—
What did you make me eat?

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It is a good thing,
you say—
But,
what is a good thing?

Forgive me if
I don’t know
what it means.

We only know how
to live in peace;

pray after moments—
both to be grateful for,
and to persevere;

take care of
the plants,
the trees,
the animals and their children,
the land,
and everything else created.

What do you mean—slave?
Is that a new animal?
We are?
We are humans—
specifically chosen,
made in the Lord’s image—

Why—
why are you suddenly mad?
You already knew?
I’m sorry if I offended you.

Oh!—
If I eat this fruit,
you won’t be mad at me anymore?

But—
we were told this is poison.
It isn’t?


What is lying?
Not true?
What is not true?

Oh!
I’m sorry,
please don’t be mad at me.

Yes, yes,
I will eat—
but only if you promise
this is not poison,
alright?
Okay.
I believe you.

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But—
who didn’t want to be saved?

No!

Those two weren’t abandoned.
They never were.

Though
they tried—
they tried so hard
to escape—

yet—
they couldn’t.

And the only escape
they had
was with each other.

So when they finally left,

they were mocked;
given a sarcastic order;
and beneath it—
a curse,
a longing delayed by death.

Still, in the end—
they got away.

Though it didn’t seem so,
in the end,
they were the ones lost.
They were the ones
who lost out.

But—
was victory
what they were after?

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But—
who didn’t want to be saved?

No!

Those two weren’t abandoned.
They never were.

Though
they tried—
they tried so hard
to escape—

yet—
they couldn’t.

And the only escape
they had
was... with each other.

So when they finally left,

they were mocked;
given a sarcastic order;
and beneath it—
a curse,
a longing delayed by death.

Still, in the end—
they got away.

Though it seemed otherwise,
they were the lost ones.
They were the ones
who—lost it all.

But—
was victory
what they were after?

Monday, October 13, 2025

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And a declaration of sin
suddenly became a prayer.

He, too, wanted to live.
The bright shine of a calm Sunday
waves at him—
telling him:
you don’t have to do this.
Go back.
You don’t need to.
Just return home.
Relax.
Enjoy your life.
You’ve done enough.
No one’s going to be mad at you.
At the very least—
you lived.

Yet the greedy man prayed:
“Lord, please—
help me get one more.”

He said, as he went on,
saving the very same people
who hated him;
who belittled him;
who called him a coward;
who mocked him to the very core;
the very same people who hurt him,
dragging him through the mud.

He pushed himself for them.
He was tired.
He wanted to complain,
but—
he saved them.

It was his duty,
and his duty,
he did.

Oh! How greedy a man could be,
that he became
so much more.

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Though I am surrounded by enemies;
Though the world feels ever so cruel;
Though everything I do and gain seems trivial;
Though I am drowning in grief, despair, and more—
Lord, please—
let me still cling to my dear faith.

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Please, Lord—
just one more day.
Help me get through
just one more day.

Give me strength,
so I may keep my faith.
I know these trials
are part of Your design—
the grand scheme,
Your plan for me,
Your plans—
for me.

But—
I’m getting tired, Lord.
The pain is becoming
more and more unbearable.
I can feel myself
straying further and further away.

I know the folly of my acts,
but—
I’m drowning.
I’m suffocating.
Evil and sin have become common,
and I, too—unaware—follow.

Lord, why is the world
ever so cruel?
And I’m becoming like the world.
I wish to refuse, but—
I find it ever so hard not to be.

So please—
please!
I beg of You, Lord Almighty,
please, please—
help me keep my faith.

I am already too lost, too lonely,
though I have
a house to call home,
and friends to call company.

None of it matters
if I lose my faith.

So please, Lord,
I beg of You—
give me strength
to keep my faith.
Let me stay faithful.

Sunday, October 12, 2025

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And all stood still—
as our long-forgotten grave,
overridden by dirt,
overgrowth,
and turmoil—

once more,
rose.

We had,
for many days before,
already dug
our final rest—

yet the glamour of life,
and all its clamor—
of purpose;
of fame;
of superiority;
and hence—
of reason—

made us
unremember—
our last pages.

We may be
significant
for a few generations after—

but to the world:
its youth,
its prime,
its evening—

we are
but specks,
ever-minute details,
ever so trivial.

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The battle is won,
yet emptiness follows.

A hollow victory,
bought with unwanted sacrifice.

No smile could paint
a more tragic win
than discovering
that both the sky
and the promised paradise—
empty.

We all should—
have sinned
better.

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The battle is won,
yet emptiness follows.

A hollow victory,
bought with unwanted sacrifice.

No smile could paint
a more tragic win
than discovering
that both the sky
and the promised paradise—
empty.

We all should—
have sinned,
anyway.


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Without her—
no amount
of wait
can bring:
the evening’s
golden hour.

She is
one who—
gently lays
the sun
to rest;

She is
one who—
brings in
the sparkle
of the
many stars—
and also
the moon—
into the
oblivion
we call
night sky.

It is
also she—
who made
the hue
without color
ultimately beautiful.

I wonder—
what time
tonight when
she will
come appear.

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I got so used
to the feeling of—
sorrow;
and loneliness—

that even the small,
common victories
I once dreamed of having
now feel empty.

I can smile—
yes.

But—
all I am
is hollow.

Saturday, October 11, 2025

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Haven’t you noticed it yet?
The truth—
and nothing else—
is a sole privilege
of the honest man.

He is entirely aware of deceit and loyalty,
deception and love
unconditional—
it is both a perk and a curse
to he who does not lie.

The world,
in its entirety,
conspires—
just to make the discerner
aware.

The one problem, though—
the world is built
by backstabbers,
slit-tongued charismatic leaders,
men who climb on the backs of other men—

and worst of all,
he knew—
with complete and unbiased truth,
when his lover’s
“I love you”
meant—
“I need you.”

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And if you ever feel lacking—
as if the whole world,
and everything in it,
has turned away from you;
as if all your prayers are never heard—
as if even the sky above
feels all too empty...

Just pray, and repeat
these few words—

Just one more day, Lord.
Please help me keep my faith.
Just for one more day.
One more, Lord.
Help me
stay faithful.


However you wish to say it,
don’t ask for anything else.
Ask only for one more day
to not lose faith—

just for—

One
More
Day.

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No amount of spirit—
Will drown out your sorrow.

Even your lungs will still seek
Air—
As you sob again and again.

Your eyes will only pull you in
Deeper—
The world will only remind you,
Always.

And crying will become
Your new stroke of swimming.

Come on—
Swim!
Cry harder!
Swim!
Go!—
Save yourself.

No one else will
Truly cry
For you—
To be saved.

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Oh! How my facade and bravado
Intertwine—
as I gallantly shout
of unlove—
yet I still am.

My smile masks
my empty heart
as hollowed words
and laughter
come out my mouth.

My tears still holding on to my eyes
as my eyes are feeling no more—
of looking
forward to a future
we both are untogether.

My cheeks waiting
as my lungs cheers
in bathed breath
of my sob being held back.

I lie.
I am still in love.

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But—
I don’t want to—
remember;
understand—
learn—
know—
feel;
find out—

why, of all things,
am I crying for a song,
not of love—
though I’m heartbroken.

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I cannot drown you in alcohol;
you have all the spirit and concentrate
at beck and call—
to remind me of you,
of everything about you:

the way you walk,
the accent of your talk,
how you carry yourself,
and how you be you.

I can’t take them out of my mind.
I was—
and I still am—
in love with you.
I can’t change it.

The ache in my heart reminds me of you.

You are the one memory
I cannot seem to forget—
a curse bound to me,
much like how Prometheus was bound
for being in love.

Friday, October 10, 2025

Random Leaf #297 precisely cut recently found

If only he hadn’t left.
If only she were more courageous.
If only he had come back sooner.
If only she had waited just a bit more.
If only he knew.
If only she knew.

Maybe—

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If there was someone
who dared even pray
for the one sinner
who needed it most,

has there been anyone
more human, who prayed
for a greater being
we all prayed to?

Not just pray to,
but actually pray for.

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Unprepared,
unthought,
unwise,
unloved,
but—
never
unkind.

Random Leaf #294 precisely cut sacrilegious recently found

As for the gospel today:
Chicken Biryani Vasmati Rice,
with Chicken Alfredo pasta on the side,
a sweet Chicken Adobo
with tidbits of pineapple
for that zesty, tangy taste.

It will be served
with a hot homily of Chicken Noodle Soup,
or the good news and revelation
of our Lord and Savior,
Colonel Sanders.

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Oh! Don’t be silly,
there’s no mistake in it.
We all have a part
in the grand plan.
The playwright wrote meticulously:
everything we did, do,
and will be doing—
whether it be right
or filled with mistakes
and regrets later on.

We’re all reading the script
and acting out the plot
for the great archi-theatric.

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And if we’re going to do this—
Don’t I at least have a say
in what we’re having for dinner?

I know, I know.

The world is ending
in a few hours,

but at least I won’t be starving—
am I right?

Oh, doesn’t matter anymore
if there’s cheese, or nuts,
or if it’s too sweet.

We’re all going to die anyway—
can’t we, for a few moments more,
enjoy living?

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What does the universe care
if I keep glancing—
not at her,
but in my thoughts of her,
wearing an all-white dress
on our wedding day?

I know I’m fickle
when it’s love we’re talking—

but—

can’t a man dream?

Random Leaf #290 precisely cut and recently found

And only by day
are lamp posts
less attractive.

They break the trail
of the horizon,
just slightly above
the tiled rooftops.

They dishonor the sky
for remaining in the spotlight
when what matters most
is the day sky.

And only then, at night,
in the absence of light,
do they glow, spark,
and catch everyone’s attention.

Oh, poor souls,
may you all
be forgiven
for your cruel folly.

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Stupid or not,
as long as it sounds awesome,
people will buy it.

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And my prayers—
will always be the same:

Health and protection
for my family
and my loved ones;
the Lord’s hands in their lives,
and many blessings,
prosperity,
and peace
for their souls.

As for me—
however and whatever
is to come—
I’ve already accepted
where I am going.

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I’d prefer
if I
wrote more
of love—
things essential,
things not much
truly, truly
talked about.

Oh, sex
is good—
but love
isn’t always
about pleasure.

There’s more.
There’s always
something more.

And don’t
go on
telling me
there are
untruths better
unknown than
spoken of.

That’s wrong.
That is
very wrong.

Love is
never something
only about
happy times—
the good
times—nor
is it
only about
what makes
us happy.

No one’s
truly perfect—
this is
the truth.
And we,
as humans,
as people,
as ones
with souls—

we are
all flawed.
There are
imperfections, unwanted
patches, bruises
and scars
around us.

These, too,
also matter.

Oh, how
far have
we deviated.

But nonetheless,
I, too,
am capable
of falling.

These horns
and wings
are witnesses,
evidence, and
proof that—
I, too,
have fallen.

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Let us make this
a bit more entertaining.

You will be the greatest
of all creations—
top of the food chain,
closest, even, to me.

Yes, yes!
My own image—
as a proof,
proof that I chose you
above everything else.

But—
there’s a but—
there always is.

Oh, no, it isn’t death.
Death will be
something you’ll wish for—
I know. I know.

It may sound cruel,
but don’t let it bother you—
for now.

As for the catch—
it will be something
I… actually don’t have.

Rejoice!

Oh, don’t worry about it.
It will make you more—
engaging,
more warm,
more home-y—
do you get me?

It’s called—
what’s that ‘m’ word?
M… m… em—
Ah! Empathy!
Yes, that’s right.
Empathy.

Oh, don’t make that frowny face—
you’re making me look ugly.

It’s sort of like
you can read people’s minds.

See? See?
Think of it like magic.

Oh, you’ll learn of it
sooner than you think.

For now—
run along in the garden.

Enjoy life.
Be merry.

Soon after,
you’ll learn more.

Learn, too, why I let myself
lack such folly.

What’s that? No—
it’s not too important.

For now—
go.
Run along.

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Just like last time,
you made another desert.
Haven’t you had enough?

Again and again, always—
a word heavily misused.
No! It isn’t love.
It no longer is.

It is a lie
you keep clinging to—
milking someone’s very soul
so dry, turning it
into a barren wasteland.

Haven’t you had enough?

Thursday, October 9, 2025

Random Leaf #1997 precisely cut and political

Why are they scared?
A façade of bravado beneath the mask.
Their toil for chaos earns more
than their desire for the end.

They show their good for the wrong act—
good coins held back from true prosperity.
They themselves became the enemy,
and they are unaware.

Unaware of their folly,
unaware of their laughing coffins.

Rusted crowns keep shining;
no amount of blood shed
can restore the throne to glory.

The pig pen has risen into a castle,
and the old walls have become ruin.

Long live the pigs!

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And who decided I can’t pick
a favorite?

I have my own wants and expectations—
though I’m always misunderstood:

It is his mysterious way;
It’s part of his grand design;
He has a plan for all of us;
There are reasons only he knows.

What ways?
What grand design?
What plan?
What reason?

I merely want to see.
I want to watch lifetimes play out.

What purpose does it serve me to help?
Why would I need to?

The fractures made to the tales
would only spoil my leisure—
I don’t want that.

As for those I chose:

Live long lives.
Entertain me more.

That’s the way for you to go;
that’s the grand design,
the plan,
the sole reason.

Make me enjoy watching.

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And it will be me who’s aware—
of lies, deceptions, deceits,
betrayals, and murder.

Bottom line:
I’ll let everything happen anyway.

I hear pleas;
I hear prayers;
I hear complaints;
I hear voices.

I will not answer them.

They are only fragments of my idea—
unreal,
imagined,
thoughts.

They cannot touch me,
though I can—
I won’t.

They are
inessential,
trivial,
mundane,
unworthy.

Mere echoes of eternity,
that beg and beg and beg.

They serve me no purpose,
save for entertainment.

With just a flick of a switch,
I can end these idiosyncrasies.

They’d better be entertaining—
if they do not want it all
to come to an abrupt conclusion.

Though the end,
in all means,
signifies nothing.

Random Leaf #1994 precisely cut

I’m not faithful,
yet I still pray.

Though I hope
for good things to come—
impatient for Lady Luck
to kiss my cheek—
I’m always expecting the worst.

Yet somewhere deep in me,
I’m always hopeful—
hopeful that my expectations
will always be wrong.

I, too, believe the world is beautiful—
not just cruel—
a world where serendipity is common,
and blessings and luck
arrive after a storm has passed,
or in the middle of it,
or even when no tragedy ever happened—
just me, being paranoid.

But as it stands—
as it always is—
the world is cruel.

More so to the faithful,
the lazy,
the hopeless,
the romantics,
and those so dramatic
that they find solace
in pen and paper,
or in the leaves
of old, forgotten forests.

Random Leaf #1993 precisely cut

When does the abyss
stop staring?

Does it cease
when gazes grow few—
too few for men or souls
to grasp and hold?

Or when mankind becomes?

Curiously—

when does man unbecome?

Does he undo
when he accepts he cannot be more?

Or does he unbe,
when his heart stops?

Tuesday, October 7, 2025

Random Leaf #1992 precisely cut

Pray!

All I’m telling you
is to pray.
If no answer comes,
keep praying.

Pray so hard
even the devil can hear you.

Pray!
Pray so hard
even the devil answers.

Pray!
Pray so hard
even the devil makes a deal.

Pray!
Pray so hard
the bargain bends.

Pray!
Pray!
Pray!

Just keep praying.

Until no one is left to answer you;
until you realize it was who you prayed to
who whispered to the devil
to grant your wish.

Even then,
don’t lose faith.

Just pray.

The sky is not empty.
It never is.

Random Leaf #1991 precisely cut

And the love songs
I once committed my ear to—
to forever echo
in my own eternity—
suddenly became monotonous.

The color you always wore
grew too dull for the evening sun,
setting off to distant places
just before the golden hour.
Your hue became one less
from the rainbow after rains.

Your face, your figure,
the color of your hair,
the tiny sparkle in your iris,
your beautifully etched nose,
your lips—ever in careful symmetry—

everything about you,
from your gestures to your voice
that chuckled, giggled, moaned,
shouted, and whispered,

yes—everything that was distinctly you,
you who once mattered so much to me—

became just another stranger in the crowd.
Faceless.
Blurry.
A flavorless figure.
No one.

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Call me selfish,
or one without heart,
but I cannot love you.

Though I’ve written you
a thousand times over —
many a love letter —
I simply cannot fall.

I have dressed you beautifully
in gorgeous white for a wedding
I presumptuously call ours,
but I cannot let it be.

You are the goddess —
so near, yet ever unreachable.
It is through your eyes that the sun shines,
and in your lips
that nectars of golden symphony appear.
You are the light beyond the horizon,
and the one who silences all sound.

But nevertheless,
we simply
cannot be.

I am in love with you.
I still am,
but—

how can my thoughts
be of love
when the world is ending?

Random Leaf #1989 precisely cut

“Dad, I’m scared.”

I told my father.
It was the uncertainty
that was engulfing —
as if a great void,
both hollow and menacing,
stretched out its eyes around me,
and the abyss,
with unseen hands,
was drawing me in.
I was genuinely afraid.

“Don’t be,” my father said.
“Surrender your worries to God.
What man cannot do,
without even asking,
our Lord God will do.
Just pray,
pray as hard as you can.
Be faithful,
have patience —
He will answer.”

It was a kind of magical wisdom
he was passing on to me.

“One day, when you have a family of your own,”
my father continued,
“you will truly understand
these words of mine.”

And I never saw myself living past thirty,
yet with great age and no paperwork,
I couldn’t disagree with what I was told.

My hesitations, worries, and fears are still there,
yet my father’s words
embrace me in a gentle calm.
I’m still afraid —
but for tonight, I feel
I can sleep a little better.

Monday, October 6, 2025

Random Leaf #1988 precisely cut

Etched in the sky
are grey clouds.
They bring tales of rain,
surely to bless
the crops farmers
diligently grew.

Boys in the schoolyard
dream of no classes,
of siestas,
afternoons without folly —
just laughter
and sweat-soaked plays.

They will one day
become men,
adults of the real world,
or maybe of
lesser trivialities;
but for now, banalities.

The little girls
keep their houses indoors
with dolls and make-believe,
sometimes with other children,
losing precious moments
to waste,
to lighter matters:
food, beauty, dreams,
and far-off fantasies
too old or too grand.

Dreamers remain dreamers.

Yet none of them
seems to have heard
the answer
to everyone’s prayers.
It may be
too hard to take,
too crooked, prickly,
splintered at the edges —
but it is still
the voice
we whisper to
with wants, apologies, pleas,
desires and undesires,
plans and leaps.

One word,
too loud,
coarse, brittle, hollow:
“Surrender.”

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Now tell me
oh dear God,
one above all,
creator and designer
of all things.

What happens when
the most faithful
is given trial
no man wants?
A test cruel
and most vile
makes the faithful
even doubt.

I am begging.
My knees ache
from endless prayers,
my lips taste
salt and despair.

Please tell us
what will happen?

It wouldn’t be
too much if
you were to
abandon him, right?
Let us say
it is too
part of this
so-called theatrics.

It is entertaining,
please tell me
it is, right?

All this is
just a show
to you alone
and nothing matters.

Not the faithful’s
tears, pain, pleas,
not the curses
he tries unsaid.

It is all
a drama, right?

A wonder tragedy,
more grand, more
fantastic, more incredibly
memorable still today.

Shakespeare holds nothing
to this play,
Beethoven cannot compose
such symphony of
sob and despair.

Leonardo da Vinci
would be dumb
to understand beauty
of the faithful’s
life, tragic life.

So tragic and
without a doubt
very, very meaningless.

This is nothing
more than someone’s
silly tale, right?

Oh, my apologies,
you wrote this,
am I right?

Oh, but please,
do tell me
and everyone both
part and not
of this tale,
does this really
have any meaning?

My heart quakes,
my hands shake,
my body pleads.
I am praying.
Please do not
give us answer
we never want.

Please don’t say
that all of
the pain, suffering,
lament, fear, regrets,
all things keeping
us awake when
we need rest—

A simple fleeting
idea to have
laughs and giggles,
that is everyone
and everything, right?

Actors in passing
imagination that truly
served no purpose.

All of us
are trivial things—
ashes in play.

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Drown me into the depths
outside sanity,
grabbing, too, my memory.
Make me forget,
make me unremember.

I still love her;
I loved her still.
She alone is the end of all rivers,
the start of all rain,
the furthest horizon—
unreachable.

One who came from dreams,
the dream of mankind,
the one true reason
humanity prayed thanks for existing.

She alone.
No one else.

Sunday, October 5, 2025

Random Leaf #1985 precisely cut

I can play
the devil’s advocate—
if let be.

If given chance,
I don’t think
I could be.

I’m not enough,
nor am worthy
to commit sin.

I’m all talk,
yes. I know.
But to become—
that’s another matter.

Random Leaf #1984 precisely cut

The cage too wanted to be loved.
He enjoyed the company
of men or bird alike—
to him,
they were never prisoners,
only companions
who, with indecision,
often stayed by his side.

He loved the merry talk of men,
the beautiful singing of birds.
And though in time he’d rust,
he never rushed
to open or close his doors.

He listened to stories and songs,
looked into the eyes of strangers and beasts
recounting far-off lands
and distant lovers.
He cared little for the twisted histories
and records men brought with them—
but he took them in all the same.

Inside, he was hollow,
a vast space of emptiness.
At times, a glutton,
if the warden willed it.
But choice was never his,
so he did not care—
as long as his loneliness
was satiated.

Yet it was his chains and bars
that all could see.
He never chose to be a sinner.

And of all things—
beside a crutch—
he was among the first
to be abandoned.

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Random Leaf #1983 precisely cut

There was no hesitation in her action.
One of the few things about her
That pulled me in—
Infatuation.
Not love,
Not destiny,
Just me being interested.
Nothing more.

Maybe,
If I could know her better.
Maybe.
A hard maybe
Without guarantee.

Still, I would listen—
To her voice,
To her complaints,
About trivial things,
About what matters.
I would notice her,
From the smallest gestures
To the absolute ones.

I would see her soul
Spilling through her eyes,
And lose myself
In the same abyss
Reflected back.

By then,
It would no longer be
Mere infatuation.
Perhaps curiosity,
Perhaps something unnamed—
Not quite pathos,
Not quite eros,
But something near,
Something burning
Toward the edge of love.

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It’s all good and fine—
I’m not in love anymore.
Let her see my dark side.
Let her see my evil,
all the things I’d never
show the world.

I’m not in love anymore.
I don’t need to be shy.
I’m unmasking myself now.

Look—
here!
Horns protruding.
I am the devil,
because I refuse
to be less,
I want more.

Don’t mind my wings;
they’re only ornaments,
nothing more.

Unbound, without mask,
I am the bane
of all existence.
No need to understand me.
I am the devil.
I am evil.
I am the enemy—
not an enemy,
but the enemy.

No need to be
taken aback;
it is all unwritten.

I’m not in love anymore,
so why be bashful,
why stay incognito?

It’s as if
you were never there.

Friday, October 3, 2025

Random Leaf #1981 precisely cut

They met each other
at four in the afternoon—
not too late for sunshine,
not too early for gold.

She was everything to him,
yet to her,
he was no one at all.

She sold flowers for a living;
most of her days
were surrounded by blooms.

But to him,
it was her smile—
a fleeting afternoon meeting
that became his whole world.

Strangers in truth,
yet his loneliness
saw more than it should.

It was love at first sight—
or so he swore,
not knowing it was only
infatuation,
nothing more,
nothing less.

Thursday, October 2, 2025

Random Leaf #1980 precisely cut

To be unmoved and immovable,
to remain silent while witnessing,
to unhear the call of eternity,
to exist while unexisting—

that is who God really is.

Do not call His name
without compensating perfection.
His act demands the world to bow.
He is not God for nothing.

It is blasphemy to boast of faith
without gazing into the abyss,
and with courage,
letting the abyss gaze back.

Leap, if you can.
Take the knife, if you cannot.
Do not parade your faith—
live it.

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Random Leaf #1979 precisely cut

Is it not hard,
still, for him—
to stab a friend,
or strike down
a heroic figure?

The man who saved him,
his family,
all he held dear…
yet duty demanded
he cast him out.

He knew the folly.
He knew the wrong.
But he cannot disobey.
He is only a cog
in the great machine—
to stop, to refuse,
would shatter the cruel life
we cling to.

This is never
entirely his fault.
He has mouths
to feed too.

He wants to live.
Though it sickens him,
he must follow through—
he must obey.

He has lives
depending on him.

Even if the world
calls him unjust,
rude, false,
he has to.
It was an order.
He cannot say no.

But it does not mean
he wants to do it.
It does not mean
he loves being the villain
in someone else’s story.

He was ordered.
So were his companions—
they too owed debts
to the heroes,
and yet they obeyed.

They had no say.
They were painted as villains.
But that was just their Monday.

And the next few days
will be no different.
They will laugh as usual,
speak foolishly,
live as if
nothing happened.

But the life
in their eyes
will be gone.
Their burdens unseen,
their scars unspoken,
etched in silence.

They will bear them
until their names fade
from their gravestones.

They will be villains.