Random Leaf #1673

The villain is the hero in their story.

Random Leaf #1672

"Why do you keep saying that?"

"Say what?"

"That you're a bad guy."

"Duh? Doesn't these horns amd wings already give it away?"

"But.. but you're not a bad guy."

".. To you what, here's the truth. I'm saying I am, in case I suddenly, you know, turn evil or something in the next few days, months or years."

"But that's just a lie, isn't it? A silly prank that you always playfully tell everyone."

"You shouldn't be too trustful of guys with horns."

"B-but that isn't you. You're a good guy. A kind person. If you keep telling us that, you're giving us this conflicting feeling."

"Oh! Don't be. I want you to be aware. And first of all, I want you not to trust me. It is in my nature to be deceitful."

"With how you treat us and how all of us can say nothing but goodness about you, you're just playing this childish prank on us, right? Right?"

"I'm the devil, the enemy, the villain of.. of everyone; of this world. How do you supposed I scheme without first tricking the world?"

"But that isn't just you. You're not an enemy. You aren't the villain. You're a friend of everyone; of this world. You aren't evil."

"Then I've succeeded."

"You telling everyone to be wary of you and goes on to elaborate you're the devil, is it.."

"Part of my plan."

"You're evil if you say that."

"Then how should I-"

"If you're the devil and the enemy of this world, so be it. The world doesn't need a hero if you're here."

"What?"

Random Leaf #1671

"The ones I cannot save, are the voices inside my head."

"How many times have you heard your voice echo?"

Random Leaf #1670

"If the world needs a villain, I can be one."

"But we already have one enemy, what we need is a king to rule and guide us all."

"You call that an enemy? Such nuisance isn't even worth it. If you're asking me to rule and be your king, I'll have to pass on to that. I'm not meant for such small task. But as for a guide, it is better for a villain to be one. I'll help you but it has to be on my way."

"Your words are confusing."

"I will not heal your wounds, I'll pour salt over it. I will make it hurt. But you will heal. You will definitely heal but not without pain. I will be your guide, your mentor. But I will be strict; I will be harsh; I will be cruel. You will call me evil. But that's just how I want to be. I am the enemy after all."

"You want to be some sort of like an anti hero?"

"Heroes wear capes and have to hide behind facades. Antiheroes have tragic stories, refuses to be hailed good though they want to be good. That isn't for me. I will teach you how to great but you have to kill me. That's just how things must go if you want me to guide your to greatness. I will make you walk on broken glasses and through thorny bush, just so you would get here; get to me. I am the necessary evil."

"An antihero-"

Random Leaf #1669

"And here I thought I'm saving her. That I'm that one person, the only person who truly understood. I always thought I'm the hero of her story. I never realized, I've become the villain. I wanted her to be happy. I noticed her every efforts, down tobthe most simple and even the trivial things she does. I thought I understand her."

"What happened?"

"I killed her."

"..."

"I killed her with this kindness I forcefully imposed on her. I am the hero who betrayed her. I am the villain of her story. I am her murderer."

Random Leaf #1668

Tell me, one who calls himself hero,

in your story, are you really the hero?

Random Leaf #1667

"It's alright, is what I wanted to say. I knew it from the start that it will hurt but I didn't know it would really hurt this much."

"So that's how you're in love with her, right?"

"I supposed so but, man.. This aching feeling, I don't know for long I could bear this. I love her but I'm not the one for her."

"And who are you to decide that?"

"I love her enough to know what's good for her. And I know for certain I am not good for her."

"That's how you see it but is that how she sees it?"

"I.. knowing her, I know for sure she'd choose me. Or did I made her liked me so much?"

"Isn't that basically how relationship work?"

"But I'm certain I'm not good for her."

"To tell you the truth, you knowing what's good or best for her is also how relationship work."

"So you're saying, I should break up with her?"

"No! I'm saying to be better."

"I am trying."

"Then you're on the right track."

"How can you say that when I'm trying but nothing's happening? Nothing's changing, I'm not getting better."

"Is what you thought, but what does she think?"

Random Leaf #1666

One day, you will hear whispers that will make your eyes well up in tears. It could be emotional or enlightening but whatever these voice tell you, listen well and listen good. They are hints of both the ast and what's to come. These few things can be easily be mentioned trivial but know they aren't.

Random Leaf #1665

Right, there and then,

The raging monster seemed

like a god to her.

It was the destined prophecy,

She was meant to slay god.

And there she was fulfilling it.

Random Leaf #1664

It's not your fault, ma!

The world needed a hero,

And you raised one.

It's not your fault, ma!

It's not your fault.

The world need me.

Random Leaf #1663

No!

It isn't a jumbled mesh.

He did

it

out of his heart.

At that moment,

he

was just happy.

Can't you hear it?

A heart struck with love.

He is

overjoyed.

And this melody

h

e

made

just

it

echoed,

heard, whispered, sung.

He is in love.

Know this!

He is

in

love!

Random Leaf #1662

"You know, I never did mention this, but I'm aware of it."

"What?"

"I mean, I know what's going on but with how things are going right now, you know. I just can't be like.. how do I put it. I feel like.. I don't feel like being happy and all if things are like this."

"Wait, wait, wait. You're aware of what?"

"You know, or maybe I just assumed it. But that can't be right, right? I saw the signs, the changes in the habits and all. I saw it all. If you're trying to hide it, you no longer need to. I already know. But if I'm wrong, well, this isn't the first time my gut feelings aren't correct."

"Oh! You found out."

"Yeah, I guess so. And with what you just said, it's really confirmed."

"But to begin with, you aren't blood related and all."

"What? Of course, we aren't. We're employer, employee related. I'm her boss and she's my lovely secretary. Nothing more."

"Then the way she did all those things."

"Yeah, at first I thought that's just how she is. None of the previous secretaries were like that even from when father was still the owner."

"But, you seemed like you were unaware of it."

"Yeah, I guess, that's my fault. I don't know how to react to it so the best thing that I thought is to be nonchalant about it and pay it little attention or none at all."

"But, but, you know she's in love with you."

"Yes."

"And you know you aren't related by blood."

"Yes, wait, what? Why do you keep saying that?!"

Random Leaf #1661

"Those are.."

"No! It's not what you think!"

"What else is it then? Gosh! You should stop with this none sense. Why are you even doing these? Ah! Don't go hurting yourself. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here."

"But this aren't-"

"So who is it this time? Was it another girl? Did you fight with your dad?"

"But Gini.."

"Don't go hurting yourself, you hear me, Pino."

Random Leaf #1660

Puppets made unaware!

Those aren't threads

meant to be guides.

They are shackles!

Woods, metals carved out

to form faces and limbs,

They are more than that!

If only they knew.

If only they knew.

Random Leaf #1659

"What good does it do? You know it yourself, that is poison you're drinking."

"This is poison? I, actually, didn't know."

"Stop it with the sarcasm! You're.. you're killing yourself. Stop it!"

"Kill myself? How can you-"

"You can't bring her back. Even if.. Even if you're doing that to yourself. You can't bring her back."

"And me not killing myself will bring her back. Please tell me that's the truth. Or no matter whether I die or not, either way, she won't be coming back. I already know that, kind one."

"It's not your fau-"

"Oh! You stop it with that line. That's what she used to say to me but you saying or heck! You reminding me about it won't change anything. She is never coming back."

"It's not your-"

"Yes! I'm not to be blamed! The world is."

"But why?"

"Oh! You mean this? It's funny but I never got to tell this to anyone. There was one time when all the world is still filled with colors and worth. When she was.. Whem she was still by my side. There was this one time that kept on coming back to my mind. Some sort of an echo that kept on telling me, reminding. And I can never forget this. She meant the world to me and she did say to me that I, too, is her world."

"What?"

"The world is to be blamed. Not me. And with this, I know for sure, I'll get my vengeance."

"No!"

Random Leaf #1658

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love.

Don't fall in.. oops.

Just sort of happened.

I guess?

Random Leaf #1657

If you think about,

It's an everyday normal things.

But to me, it isn't.

You're that one sin I must never commit.

Don't say it's love.

It isn't, is it not?

Random Leaf #1656

And to think, in your times of troubles, the only one who'd actually believe you, no questions ask, is your enemy.

Random Leaf #1655

"I keep basking on the same light. And each time I do, I'm hopeful I'd get to see something different."

Random Leaf #1654

He knew right from the start

the red flags and bad news coming.

But he made himself seemed unaware.

It is

his sin,

His flaw.

Even though

it hurts,

He cannot

stop himself

from being

in love.

Random Leaf #1653

"These few words of a prayer you said from your heart. Do you actually believe Our Lord would listen to them?"

"I.. I'm no believer. I have no faith. I admit, there was once a time I was, but after everything that happened, I stopped. Not just that, I even went on to renounce His name. I cursed His name, if you'd believe me. I know how evil a sinner I am but that's just I am. I grew tired of the.. problems.. of the trials I was faced with. Until then I met her."

"This girl. Did she put you back on track?"

"She.. she saved me. Please, don't tell me this is another trial. I.. I can't anymore. Maybe if I'm with her, I think, I think we could. But.. but if she's.. she's.. How cruel.. I can't anymore. How cruel can this world be? And if there really is a God, how cruel can He be to me. I.. I just want to be happy. And.. and, and.. once more. I can't. If this is another trial.. please, just not like this. Not like this."

"Have faith-"

"No! I mean, yes, if that's what it would take to save her. I have to believe, right? A miracle will happen, right? Right? She'll be cured the next day, right? Right? Everything's going back to normal the next day, right? Right? Please, tell me that's how things will be if I have faith. If I believe. Please, say it. Give me assurance. Just say it. She will be save, right? Right? Our lord god will not let his faithful children face trials they are not meant to overcome, right? Right?"

"I.. I-"

"Please, just say that thing will go back to normal afterward. She be smiling once more and I can hear her voice calling out my name once again. Please. Please. Say that it so. Say it that a miracle will happen. She'll be saved, right? Right?"

"Just have faith. Our Lord will listen."

".. The more you say it, the more you make me. Okay, I'll believe. I'll have faith once more. If that's what it would take."

Random Leaf #1652

If there really is a god.

Please, please, please,

save her.

Please save her.

I don't care anymore

what happens in the hereafter

just please,

save her.

Random Leaf #1651

The world may hate you. The world may keep a grudge. The world may not even forgive you. But know that you're allowed to forgive yourself. You know yourself that it isn't the even least you could do. So please, forgive yourself.

Random Leaf #1650

He paid in full the debt I owe.

Random Leaf #1649

My heart

wasn't as

effective as

it used

to be.

The beat

is there,

I know,

but there

is something

not right.

I am

but at

the same

I'm not.

My heart,

it aches,

but just

not the

right rhythm.

I think

I am

I'm not.

Random Leaf #1648

If you cannot write a story,

Be at least, an inspiration.

If that still is too much,

Please save at least

One soul.

Random Leaf #1647

A love so great,

That even illusions

demand themselves

be awaken.

Random Leaf #1646

"Oh! Thank god! The guards are here. We're safe now."

"Come close. Listen. You aren't safe here."

"What?"

"You need to get out. You need to get out now. You hear me? Don't stay here. Don't go here. It's not safe. Leave. Go. Now."

"But after all we've been through. You- you don't understand. We need to-"

"This is not a safe please."

Random Leaf #1645

Here's a message for my 10 years old self:

Save me!

Do things you actually want to do.

Own up to your mistakes. Learn!

Not gonna lie, lying has its own perks too.

Try to keep up with your connections.

Go out more but remember to live.

Own up to things you know is right.

Have proper conversations. Speak!

Ever thought of writing? Start now. Dream.

Remember your roots, with honor and love.

Enjoy life but stay humble.

Save yourself.

Dream! Write! Live!

Oh! Don't forget to play games too.

Not all path is straight. Find your own.

Outside is another world, a universe!

There is another one within you.

Get up and notice the miracles.

On the way here, remember to look back.

Have the common decency to pray,

Even for the worse one, they are once

Righteous. Learn to see beyond.

End it with a bang. Shout if you have to.

Random Leaf #1644

I wanted my art to flourish but the world is blind.

Random Leaf #1643

I want her to be hapyy.

I want her to smlie.

And not just fake happy

And definitely not smiles

Forced and worn over.

I want her to be genuinely happy.

I want her to make genuine smiles.

I genuinely,

Genuinely,

Genuinely,

Want her.

I want her.

So,

I

Geniunely,

Genienuly,

Geninuely

Cna't have her.

Random Leaf #1642

Anything but that.

Random Leaf #1641

The gods,

in truth,

digustingly,

hate these.

But what simply

the faithfuls can do

but pray?

Random Leaf #1640

"They carved their truth on her skin, seems to be normal to any tattoo artist. What more is, I think it's what she deserved for she did to them."

"She stabbed them."

"Yeah, well, it can be ruled as self defense."

"The autopsy showed it was she who stabbed them first. And the tattoo artist you mentioned, she tried cutting her arm just for her to break free from the strangulation she was held. And when the tattok artist passed out, yeah, she somehow survived that monstrous grip, miraculously. Do you know what happened? She gets stabbed. How is that self defense?"

"Well, at least she got cut her arm."

"Yeah, but then she also die. You know what her death was? It isn't from the stab wound she has on her get, she died from blood loss when her eyes continued bleeding. Oh! Sorry, not eyes, I meant, her eye sockets. The girl you meant to act in self defense, gauged out the eyes of the tattoo artist. So much for defense."

"She also bled, is that nothing?"

"The self defense girl lived. And it's just the tattoo artist that got killed and their eyes gauged out, everyone in the shop got stabbed multiple times and their eyes either plucked out or pushed inward. Our, or rather, your self defense girl has a thing for eyes."

"..."

"And you're saying, after that massacre that happened, it was all an act of self defense?"

"She did mentioned that her eyes itchy the morning she woke up that day."

"A massacre happened, Johnny. A freaking massacre."

Random Leaf #1639 IG

"No, it wasn't like they betrayed her."

"What? Then what am I, what are we supposed to call this, this, this whatever that happened to her?"

"She knew it was coming."

"What?"

"Yeah, she knew it right from the start."

"Wha- How?"

"Her father already warned her about it."

"What?"

"Well, it was just from his, you know, speculation, gut feeling what you call it. He has eyes for this. He just know."

"If he knew about it then why didn't he stop her, stop them?"

"Oh, believe me, he did."

"Then why?"

"He couldn't."

"The changer of tides. That's the monicker he's given, you know that, right? You know, it's not just nickname, right? That's just how great her fa-"

"To her, the changer of tides is just another ripple. You know how soft he is to his daughter, right?"

"But why didn't sav-"

"He did. But it was her choice."

"What?"

"He came for her but she stopped him. You know the saying the fruit doesn't fall too far from the tree, right? At that moment, she became like the changer of tides himself."

"You mean to say-"

"Oh! You have got to be blind to not notice why the changer of tides is deliberately hiding his left wrist and that long sleeve coat he's now wearing, right?"

"What? Wait! What? You mean to say-"

"Among all things that actually tried to hurt him, the changer of tides, his daughter alone was able to put a real dent in him. She could really hurt him."

"You're saying, she's the bane of the changer of tides?"

"Yes."

"Okay, okay, I get what you're saying but that isn't what why you're here. I'll put a note about that and try to have my men look through it. But you know, why you're here, right?"

"They took her. Or more like she went with them."

"Went with them?"

"How. Why?"

"There is something wrong with her. She's just like her father, alright. And just the way how he handled her father, it's just crazy. She's crazy. It was like she's no longer his daughter when he lashed out at him."

"Is it like the berserker's spirit?"

"No, it's more like an actual war god is possessing her."

"A war god? That doesn't make any sense. If that's the truth then how come is the changer still alive?"

"That's just it. The crazy thing about her. She stopped and somehow whispered something to the changer before leaving."

"You serious? So after getting beaten, the changer really let her-"

"He was frozen after the thrashing and that, you know, whatever she whispered to him."

"How did you know she whispered to him?"

"I heard mumble something."

"Is there anything you could remember?"

"I don't know it was so quiet."

"Really?"

"Yeah, you know I was also beaten up, right?"

"I can clearly see that. This is odd. Very odd. If what you're saying is true, I mean it checks out. The changer of tides is currently the pinnacle of humanity. He's the first one to transcend and nothing man made nor human nor anything known lesser being could hurt him. So how did the chang-"

"Wait, I think I remember something. Long gun, I think?"

"Long gun? Longgan? The fruit?"

"No, not long gun, wait. Long gun, lone gun, long god. Wait that's not it. Long god, Alone gun, alone god"

"Alone god?"

"Yes, that's right. Alone god and then something, something."

"Alone god or a lone god. Which is it?"

"I don't know that's just what I could make hardly make out. I'm also beaten, here, remember? Give me a slack."

"Alone god. Doesn't really ring a bell for me."

"Yeah, me neither. But as I said, after that whisper, the changer is frozen. More like mortified. If anything, his face was priceless. It was so unbelievably refreshing to see his face like that. To the point it was funny. But please don't mention I said that."

"Alone God. I'm going to have my men look that up as well."

"So, what, am I free to go now?"

"You said you saw something that the changer did that is unbecoming to his title, right?"

"Yeah, now that you mentioned it, I can clearly see his face. It was really funny."

"Oh, boy. The chief wouldn't really want anything to get out that could potentially harm or besmirch his name."

"What? Wait, what do you mean chief?"

"You know what I mean, right?"

"Wait, wait, wait, what do you mean chief?"

"This is just part of the protocol. No hard, feeling, alright?"

"No, no, no! Wait!"

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A: No, it wasn’t like they betrayed her.

B: What? Then what are we supposed to call this—this… whatever happened to her?

A: She knew it was coming.

B: What?

A: Yeah. She knew it right from the start.

B: Wha—How?

A: Her father already warned her.

B: What?

A: Well… it was just his gut feeling, speculation—you know how he is. He has eyes for these things. He just knows.

B: If he knew, then why didn’t he stop her? Stop them?

A: Oh, believe me—he tried.

B: Then why?

A: He couldn’t.

B: The Changer of Tides. That’s his moniker—you know that, right? It’s not just a nickname! That’s how great her fa—

A: To her, the Changer of Tides is just another ripple. You know how soft he is with his daughter.

B: But why didn’t he save—

A: He did. But it was her choice.

B: What?

A: He came for her… but she stopped him. You know the saying—the fruit doesn’t fall far from the tree, right? At that moment, she became like him.

B: You mean to say—

A: Oh, come on. You’ve got to be blind not to notice why the Changer hides his left wrist with that long-sleeved coat.

B: What? Wait—what? You mean to say—

A: Among all the things that tried to hurt him, she alone managed to put a real dent in him. She could really hurt him.

B: You’re saying… she’s the bane of the Changer of Tides?

A: Yes.

B: Okay, okay, I get what you’re saying—but that’s not why you’re here. I’ll note that and have my men look into it. You do know why you’re here, right?

A: They took her. Or… more like she went with them.

B: Went with them? How? Why?

A: There’s something wrong with her. She’s just like her father. And the way she handled him—it’s insane. She’s… crazy. It was like she wasn’t his daughter anymore when she lashed out at him.

B: Is it like the Berserker’s Spirit?

A: No. It’s more like an actual war god possessing her.

B: A war god? That doesn’t make sense. If that’s true, then how is the Changer still alive?

A: That’s the crazy part. She stopped. Whispered something to him before leaving.

B: You’re serious? After all that, the Changer let her go?

A: He froze—after the beating, after that whisper, whatever it was.

B: How do you know she whispered something?

A: I heard her mumble.

B: Anything you remember?

A: I don’t know. It was too quiet.

B: Really?

A: Yeah. You saw I was beaten up too, right?

B: I can see that clearly… This is odd. Very odd. If what you’re saying is true—it checks out. The Changer of Tides is the pinnacle of humanity. First to transcend. Nothing human or man-made could hurt him. So how did the Chang—

A: Wait. I think I remember something. Long gun, I think?

B: Longgun? The fruit?

A: No, not longan! Wait… long gun, lone gun, long god—no, that’s not it… long god, alone gun, alone god.

B: Alone God?

A: Yes. That’s it. Alone God… and then something else I couldn’t catch.

B: Alone God or a lone god—which is it?

A: I don’t know. That’s just what I heard. Give me a break—I’m half-dead here.

B: Alone God. Doesn’t ring a bell.

A: Yeah… me neither. But after that whisper, the Changer froze. Mortified. His face—priceless. Honestly, refreshing to see him like that. Funny, even. But don’t tell anyone I said that.

B: Alone God… I’ll have my men look it up too.

A: So… what? Am I free to go now?

B: You said you saw something the Changer did that’s unbecoming of his title, right?

A: Yeah. His face—it was really funny.

B: Oh boy… the Chief won’t want anything getting out that could harm his name.

A: What? Wait—what do you mean, Chief?

B: You know what I mean.

A: Wait, wait, wait—what do you mean, Chief?!

B: Just part of protocol. No hard feelings, alright?

A: No—no, no! Wait—!

Random Leaf #1638

I know it's too selfish of me but I can't go on making villains out of you. You are all good people and better still I know you're all genuine. Despite my decisions to be someone else, to be something else, you guys wants to stick close to me. It's not like I can you offer anything, anymore, but even still you are without prejudice, and on your own desire, wants to join me. Thank you.

But I can't have that. I can't have you guys do these things I will do for my selfish whims. You have your own things going with you. I know things are getting better for you guys but I know you're not there yet. So I hope you keep up with the things you guys are doing.

I can't have you go down to hell with me when you're on your way up there. Good luck and may next time we meet, we see each others with a smile in our eyes.

Random Leaf #1637

Yet we are all without doubt

Getting closer to our end

And even further from the ever-

changing and fleeting dreams

we always once had, have, could have.

We are easily unsatisfied

Yet yearn for something we

May one day call our own legacy.

No one can deny this.

Even shepherds who guide their own

flock of fleece and meat

Dream upon the same changing sky.

Out of all the ephemeral constants,

Only he who lives dreams.

Only he who dreams lives.