Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Random Leaf #420

It came back. Memories that never existed. It just suddenly return. It speaks: "You are saved. Everything's fine. It's okay. You don't have to worry about anything. You're alright, I promise you."

Monday, November 29, 2021

Random Leaf #419 IG

And I am somewhat glad that two the of us have something we could call our own: not each other.

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And I’m somewhat glad
that the two of us
have something we can call our own—
not each other.

Sunday, November 28, 2021

Random Leaf #418

And sometimes, even sinners forgets he sins.

Random Leaf #417

There must be something, right? Something like water to a thirsty man lost in the middle of a desert. There must always be something.

Random Leaf #416

We never wanted the gift when they come back. We never really wanted those. What we want is their promise that someday, sometime hence, they will return.

Random Leaf #415 IG

Unawake and dreaming, you believe in lies no one have faith in. And so the reality you live in sees you real and those who doesn't knows you lying.

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Unawake and dreaming—
you believe in lies
no one has faith in.

And so the reality you live in
sees you as real.
And those who don’t—
know you are lying.

Friday, November 26, 2021

Random Leaf #414

To the sea of woods,
one who is lost
is merely a traveller admiring
her beauty.

The tears in her eyes
are not of sadness.
The screams of fear and despair
are language unknown to the forest,
she understand words of
adulation.

Random Leaf #413

Perhaps it's the urgency that one needs be saved. But that's not it. It never is to them. Time is trivial to one who stood remain immemorial.

Random Leaf #412 IG

Is there any difference at all between drowning in sea and getting lost in the sea of woods?

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Is there really
any difference at all—
between getting lost in the sea
and drowning in a sea of woods?

Random Leaf #411

To the sea
One who drowns
Is merely a dancer
floating in the ocean's beat.

Random Leaf #410

The boy was gasping for air
As he hardly swim.
And the girl beside him was smiling.

He was drowning
and all she could think of
was how gracefully they swim.

Random Leaf #409

Other than the sin. You also have to accept the lies as well. The honest man will never always be unsilenced.

Random Leaf #408

But by the tine you realized it, you would have been too late. What form of glitter and shine would any treasure hunter leave untouched?

Random Leaf #407

You too have to accept the sins and flaw included. It's never always the bright side, if you look closely.

Random Leaf #406

It's never as easy as accepting gifts. It's never like that.

Random Leaf #405

Here I'm afraid my bad side outweighs what's good in me.

Random Leaf #404

And yet there are lies, no matter how long it took, still remained.

Wednesday, November 24, 2021

Random Leaf #403

In case I forget, I never actually meant to be lost. But finding oneself isn't actually bad.

Random Leaf #402

Was it a curse that kept him from lying or was it another lie?

Random Leaf #401

"I can go on if I wanted to," I told them my truth.

Random Leaf #400

Am I in love right now or am I just at the peak of being foolish for today?

Random Leaf #399

What's there to dream anyway? Childhood regrets? Unrequited love? Star crossed love? Sad songs? Tragedies? A dark humor? A fantasy? The what ifs? The road not taken? That beautiful butterfly you saw sometime back then probably ages and ages hence? The fairies you talked about your friends? The flies you called friends? The tragedy of the prodigal son? The untold stories? The stories kept untold? Those silly daydreams that you had?

What is there to dream about?

Random Leaf #398

"To be honest, though. I should be sleeping right now. Instead I am dreaming."

Random Leaf #397

Who does not tell a lie?

Random Leaf #396

Who does not fall in love?

Random Leaf #395

But at this age and what's to come. Who doesn't, right?

Random Leaf #394

"But in my defense, I could be wrong," I lied.

Random Leaf #393

The king's fool would at times speak of harsh truth. They may cause heartaches even without breaking hearts. They entertain people but at the end of the day aren't people themselves?

Random Leaf #392

But it much like tragedies, it doesn't have to be always about love.

Random Leaf #391

The same with heart breaks, love unrequited, love that never happened and love that are too abstract to even be called love.

We can cry about those too.

Random Leaf #390

It doesn't have to be about tragedy and sadness all the times.

Random Leaf #389

Heavy hearts eases its burden. Tired eyes feels refreshed. A bit of one's soul, too, overflows. But there's a beauty to it.

Random Leaf #388 IG

I hope you cry too sometimes. Something I regrettably confess I do a in secret. It refreshes the palette of my eyes. Something I unregrettably try to make a habit of.


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I hope you cry too, sometimes.
Something I confess — regrettably, I do...
in secret.

It refreshes the palette of my eyes.

Something I try — unregrettably — to make a habit of—

Random Leaf #387

I wonder how you are now. Are you as miserable as me? Or have you found what truly would make you happy?

Random Leaf #386

But without it, those gifted and ungifted will forever be lost.

Random Leaf #385

Language restricts soul. There are rules and barriers. And at times limitations which is why butterflies just flutter in our stomach.

Random Leaf #384

I never loved speaking anyway. Nor does word, grammar and language in it's entirety.

Random Leaf #383

For when we, back then, to each other speak. We have our own language. Or was it I the only one that spoke it and simply misnderstood you.

Random Leaf #382

Or were thinking the same about each other. Two kindred soul ignorant of the universe and its language.

Random Leaf #381

I do wonder though, was I always a stranger?

Random Leaf #380

And surely I am now, to you, have long been forgotten. Just a stranger you once met, talked to and remembers no more.

Random Leaf #379

I am lost now. And with great certainty, it is undeniable now. Ever since then, have I felt love.

Random Leaf #378

How I wish I could back, fetch it and to you give it as a present.

Random Leaf #377

And I was supposed to have forgotten about it. But whenever my mind remembers, I just remember where I left it.

Random Leaf #376

And I left it somewhere. Far from me, close to you.

Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Random Leaf #375

Even a lonely god would choose solitude instead of an empty universe.

Random Leaf #374

Between a long life and a happy one, I'd never choose one without you.

Monday, November 22, 2021

Random Leaf #373

For the devil does not
grow his own horns.

Random Leaf #372

Cry if you must,
But do know
You truly felt it.

And the love you felt,
It is genuine and true.

Random Leaf #371

Fall in love
If you want to,
You'll get hurt, maybe,
at some point.
But bear with it.

It's the beautiful kind of hurt
that some day you'll be glad
that you've felt it.

Saturday, November 20, 2021

Random Leaf #370

Thoughts stopped
as my.voice waned.

The future is clear,
it was clear as any other day.

She was, as to the rain,
the clouds that I won't reach
ever.

Random Leaf #369

"And how come does the sun still chase after her?"

"He is always hopeful for the eclipse to happen."

"Even if it takes years?"

"Years is only but a small part of eternity. And if it were me, I would do the same."

Random Leaf #368

You aren't mine and I am yours. I have to admit, it gets painful sometimes. But you're happy and that is what truly and only matters.

Friday, November 19, 2021

Random Leaf #367

"I'm here."

Random Leaf #366

"I'm listening."

Random Leaf #365

"You're safe."

Random Leaf #364

"You're not alone.'

Random Leaf #363

"It's okay. Everything's okay."

Random Leaf #362

"I understand."

Random Leaf #361

"I believe in you."

Random Leaf #360

"That's my son."

"That's my daughter."

"That's my father over there!"

"That's my mom."

"That's my boy."

"That's my little girl."

Random Leaf #359

"I'm glad it was you."

Random Leaf #358

"You make me proud."

Random Leaf #357

"Hey, you kept your promise."

Random Leaf #356

If you can, have the decency to make them feel they exist. Make them feel that they are worth more than how others unjustly estimates their being. They are there. They exist. They're not some silly background, side character, faceless passerby. They are heroes, heroine of their own story.

Make them feel appreciated that they are them.

Wednesday, November 17, 2021

Random Leaf #355

I want to hurt you. But not in a bad way. I just want slap you back into reality.

Tuesday, November 16, 2021

Random Leaf #354

For you choose the kindness in their heart that with certainty deny the evil that is part of them. You take in the benefit that they are kind and uncruel, that your eyes are blind to the worse they could give.

Into the world, as well, you turn your eyes away.

Random Leaf #353

You can seee lie beneath their alibis and yet you still chose to believe? What more betrayal until you break?

Monday, November 15, 2021

Random Leaf #352

The clouds feel, the growing wind,
beyond ocean, the river bank
swells, as the depth beats it's waves
so do the crushing of the tide.

So be it known, lies uncommon and
common too are one and the same
at the eye of the sky.

The clouds feel,
so do the ebb waning,
drifting and in the horizon,
in one glance, may prove
the sky kisses whatever it is beneath.
A land, more seas, or some fare well traveller.

Random Leaf #351

I should be happy l, right? I am. I am happy for her. I really am.

Random Leaf #350

And now, she's no where I could reach her.

Random Leaf #349

She went further than me.

Saturday, November 13, 2021

Friday, November 12, 2021

Random Leaf #346

Learn to be appreciated.You may not have realized it yet but there are souls that truly cherishes you.

Tuesday, November 9, 2021

Random Leaf #343

At one point of his life, he became the most sinful man to have ever died.

Monday, November 8, 2021

Random Leaf #342

It just so happened one day. A poet sitting somewhere in solitude, out of a broken heart or just falling in love, chance upon the sky from the horizon and mountain beneath. Or pehaps it was just a land, a field where a farmer is tilling, or a somewhat busy street, whatever that is the poet saw. He thought to himself there's a love story to be told here.

Sunday, November 7, 2021

Random Leaf #341

The dreamer is jealous of the love story neither of the two knows exists.

Random Leaf #340

The earth to the sky is but a mischevious stone rolling towards the horizon. And sky to the earth is just emptiness.

Random Leaf #339

Yet those chose to see it, sees otherwise.

Random Leaf #338

There is nothing in between unrequited stars. Just empty gazes and hollow what if. Nothing more.

Random Leaf #337

There too is bounty for deciding not to. So is remuneration for being evil as well as honor in heroism.

Random Leaf #336

There is no glory in going to hell, only hardship. Look at Orpheus.

Random Leaf #335

Bur of course, being the self proclaimed hero you are, I am sure you will, in the end, be glorifying all of it, right?

Random Leaf #334

I wonder if you have pictured yourself already doing it.What mayhaps will you do after?

Random Leaf #333

Those cracks forming and that have long time formed, sooner or later they will burst and you will be completely overwhelmed.

Random Leaf #332

A broken jar won't overflow but it's contents will flow through.

Random Leaf #331

Just ease the pain you're feeling. The hurt is sipping through the cracks forming all over you.

Random Leaf #330

Live for the moment. Love her now, regret what's to come later when it finally comes. But you must love her. Give that benefit of the doubt to yourself and just commit to it that you will have the happy ending you so desire.

Random Leaf #329

Only of you could just be evil for once. Find your happiness and just forget what the consequences will be just to be happy.

Random Leaf #328

It's eating yourself up. You're destroying yourself. You won't admit, I know. Or perhaps you have not yet realized it.

Random Leaf #327

It's not a sin. Cruelty to one's self isn't a sin, if that's what you want to hear. Being unkind to yourself isn't a sin as well, if that's what you want to hear.

Random Leaf #326

One day, you won't find yourself anymore.

Saturday, November 6, 2021

Random Leaf #325

Was he drowning or did he not want to be saved?

Random Leaf #324

"I am drowning. Please save me," Pinocchio lied.

Random Leaf #323

Was he lost or did he want to be found?

Random Leaf #322

"I am lost. Please find me," Pinocchio lied.

Random Leaf #321

Loving oneself is an option too, if that's what you want to hear.

Random Leaf #320

You can be not a hero, if somehow that's in your mind.

Random Leaf #319

It's what you call sacrifice, right? But what of justice?

Random Leaf #318

Most of the time to himself.

Random Leaf #317

There will be times the hero will do so.

Random Leaf #316

You should understand, the true evil there is being unkind.

Random Leaf #315

The villains are the ones who understand. They're the ones misunderstood the most.

Random Leaf #314

The hero does not know that.

Random Leaf #313

There are acts of evil that are just misunderstood.

Random Leaf #312 IG

You just need to be a hero, either to someone else or simply just your self.

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You just need to be a hero—
to someone else,
or for yourself.

Random Leaf #311

You know, the act of loving can be heroic too.

Random Leaf #310

Does it deny your commitment to dreams?

Random Leaf #309

You have your own reservations.

Thursday, November 4, 2021

Random Leaf #308

The way I see it, one must either give up being a hero, otherwise being human.

Random Leaf #307

Who decided for you to be a hero, anyway?

Random Leaf #306

Aren't they one and different at the same time?

Random Leaf #305

Sacrifice.

Random Leaf #304

And what does heroism have to do with love?

Random Leaf #303

The same heroes that you, so, admired.

Random Leaf #302

It isn't sinner or saint, let me tell you. It's human or saint. My friend, you're only a human.

Random Leaf #301

You're only human, you know? You're not a saint.

Random Leaf #300

You do not have to be cruel. The world is way a head of you when it comes to that.

Random Leaf #299

Be a villain

Random Leaf #298

But I don't want to be a hero anymore.

Wednesday, November 3, 2021

Random Leaf #297

When you're in love or have finally fallen in love, you can no longer be a hero.

Tuesday, November 2, 2021

Random Leaf #296

How can one be not in love and be in love at the same time?

Random Leaf #295

I know I'm not the better angel.

Random Leaf #294

More than ever she could be.

Random Leaf #293

It's her eyes, the way she smiles, how she talks. It's all everything that she does. Heck, even the littlest gesture she does. She is happy. More than ever.

Random Leaf #292

I couldn't deny there is something sweet.

Random Leaf #291

It's bitter, I could taste it. But, at the same time, there exists something else.

Random Leaf #290

Is the world unfair or am I?

Random Leaf #289

I have my doubt though, if still I could be if she's happy with someone else.

Random Leaf #288

I'm happy when she's happy.