Random Leaf #1519

"Truth be told, you weren't the one who saved her."

"That's true."

"You're not the hero."

"I'm villain. I accepted that, right from the start."

"So why are you still after the princess?"

"I was the first to fall in love."

"In love?"

"Isn't that how I.. So, am I misunderstood?"

"Who would bring an entire army equipped with all the latest and greatest weapon at that time? Who would ride dragons flying around the castle towers while the dragons breath fire? Who would raise their door in front if a closed castle gate?"

"I wanted to show off. So I had my friends help me. My voice is very weak and from the the distant, I believe so, only the dragons speaking could be heard. It is in their nature to breath fire whenever they talk. I whispered to them the words I would want conveyed. I am but small man. I could easily be hidden behind backgrounds of great amd mighty warriors. Only for her to notice me is if I wave shining sword. Only then, maybe, her eyes could see me."

"You're messed up in the head, if you think we'd believe what you did were all out of love."

"Maybe, love at first sight, is no true love at all. But nonetheless, I tried. And here I am. A sword pointed at my throat for a love I thought was real but was unrequited. I really am not cut out for this so called lovr, don't you think so?"

Random Leaf #1518

"When have you stopped believing?"

"Probably on my fifth lose."

"Just your fifth?"

"It kept repeating, over and over and over again. Seriously, I hate it."

"So you're quitting?"

"I wish. But I'm still hopeful. Yet on scale of the two, the balance is shifting towarss me quitting. I seriously hate it. I keep getting betrayed. It hurts. It seriously hurts."

"Why are you still cling though?"

"At this point, I cherish every moment where I triumph. They can be counted no fewer than the fingers of a hand, but each time, I feel elated."

"So it's the feeling of winning that gets you going."

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"I guess, but that's not the end if why I keep going back."

"What is it, then?"

"I want to my find my self a place I truly belong."

"With that attitude of yours, I doubt you'd reach it."

"You know. It's during this moments that I certainly find joy in what I'm doing."

"You're not triumphant now, are you?"

"Not yet."

Random Leaf #1517

"Waters in my eyes."

"They are tears. You are crying. Are you sad?"

"I am not."

"Tears of joy. Are you happy?"

"I don't know. But I am glad I'm here."

Random Leaf #1516

"No, it doesn't need to be original. It doesn't need to be your own words. As long as your voice is heard. It is enough."

"..."

"Doesn't matter if it may sound so cheeky or the most clichè. It doesn't matter. You exist for that moment and at that moment the whole world exists for you. So speak up. Sing if you can't think of anything. As long as you're heard. As long as you're notice. It is enough."

Random Leaf #1515

"I failed again. I think this is my fifth time today."

"Your heart is aching. You are expecting for too much."

"I'm trying to do better."

"Your heart is aching. You are contradicting yourself."

"I'm doing my best.. I'm trying really really really hard.. But I keep failing. Perhaps this is not for me."

"Your heart is aching. You are tired."

"I'm trying."

"Your heart is aching. You are doing better but you are tired. You're giving all your best but you're exhausted. You're expecting too much for your beaten self. Rest. Take your time to calm your heart. Let it beat at its own pace. Don't contradict it flow. Breath. The day hasn't ended yet."

"I might fail again if I go back at it."

"Then fail but do better. Acknowledge your mistakes, and acknowledge that the world is testing you. The better you need not the questions you have already solved from the past."

"But I don't want to fail."

"Your heart, I suppose, is still aching. Rest if you don't want to fail but don't let your failures ever stop you. Acknowledge that you're doing better, that's it. If things are getting hard, acknowledge the world is conspiring for you to be better."

"I don't like failing. But I'm very certain I'm not the same person who I was before."

Random Leaf #1514

"How mighty and terrifying are words fully conveyed and misunderstood. With a few simple words, one can cause a sudden pang in someone's heart. Let there be tears to shed or smile to break emotionless faces. I cannot simply fathom, how the romantics and those the world used simple yet fearful letters."

"It is memories. One cannot simply relate to which things unconnected."

"Yet my mind is simply too hazy ti remember as much."

"It isn't only the mind that remembers memories. Our hearts can ache and so does our skin have something beneath crawling. Every part of us can remember. And with the right fortunate words, one can feel these wonderful sensation. The same goes for words incorrectly conveyed, they can hurt."

"May all we get to hear be appropriate for the moment. Be it clearly understood and easily misunderstood, may us all feel better afterwards."

Random Leaf #1513

Maybe there is no afterlife.

Maybe there is no redemption.

Maybe there is no reason for all us.

Maybe there is no reincarnation

Maybe there is no fantasy world

That some of us are yearning for.

Maybe there is no hereafter.

Only a great abyss that will down

Swallow us after our eternal slumber.

Everything is just a great coincidence.

We are all just fortunate that we are able

To realize and thought of dreams unmeant.

It is tragic

We are blessed

To unknow.

Random Leaf #1512

"No, she weren't praising me. She was just telling the truth."

"In her eyes, you're her hero. Just take the compliment, it will be easier that way."

"Hero, huh. She's a weird one."

"You're the weird one for not seeing yourself."

"Horns and a tail. Do I look like a hero to you?"

"Your action does. At least, that is what she saw."

"I'm no hero though. I have something mind."

"Every hero has that. Be it to inflate their ego or just to make themselves feel or whatever their ulterior motive is. The end won't justify the means in this world. Whether you have something in mind, if you show kindness, even for just one time, those who saw you may always think otherwise. On your appearance, let me say that, the devil is once an angel."

Random Leaf #1511

"The world isn't cruel. It's beautiful."

"That doesn't connect."

"You can't say a world is cruel if there exists kindness."

"But you can't call it beautiful either since there are things that are unsettling. Ugly."

"That is subjective. What's beautiful to me maybe ugly to other and perhaps what's to my dislike might be someone else's favorite."

"To your logic, it isn't supposed to be beautiful."

"But it is."

"You aren't good with logic, aren't you?"

"Neither are you good with things that we simply cannot easily comprehend."

"By that, should we just say the world is mysterious."

"It doesn't have a nice ring to it."

Random Leaf #1510

He smiled at his enemy as he taunted them. He knew of his fate and yet his faith was with his friends.

"This is why you cannot beat us," were last words were.

Random Leaf #1509

"Why are crying now?"

"I'm jealous."

"Jealous of whom?"

"The me from another universe."

"From another universe?"

"He must be living the dreams I couldn't. He must be smiling genuine smiles, laughing genuine laughrers. In his prime, I'm certain he made mom and pops cry tears of joy and made them proud to have a son like him. He must've true genuine friends around him. He must be a very kind person and people respect and trusts him dearly. He is loved. He must have won so many wars no one could. His name must have been written along the many names who are important. He must be happy, genuinely happy."

"How did he get there, mind telling me from this imaginary universe of yours."

"He conspired with his universe. He must've prayed and the universe gladly answered. That's is why he's living the dream."

"His hands may not be as clean as you thought they are."

"Of course not. The callouses he bears are his own marks of himself winning. I know for certain he might not be as honest as people around him supposed but that is him."

"Is he a good person though?"

"I don't know. I, for one, am certain I'm nit a good person."

"Then pray tell me how your imagination works and you got jealous of him?"

"His living the dream I can't."

Random Leaf #1508

A soldier of heavy armor and a great big shield went to the cementery. He is accompanied by a good friend, a great priest who does miraculous healing magic. They count the numbers of the many failures the gained. It was made easy to kniw by the many tombstone in the graveyard. All they are ever good at are  protecting and comforting, yet they could not save them all.

While all the town celebrate for the triumph in war. Two good friends lament over what is lost.

Random Leaf #1507

"Rejoice!! They've won. The heroes claimed victory. We have won!!"

"What of it?"

"Tears? Don't tell me-"

"There were less of those who returned than not. Can we even call it a victory?"

"But the enemies are no more."

"That is for the ones they've left to ponder. My thoughts are those who cannot come back. I heard this many times over. We've won the war but at what cost?"

Random Leaf #1506

"You know, the heroes will rise again. They themselves even said. There's no reason for you to cry."

"Heroes? The ones who no matter what will get back on their feet and claim victory against the evil doers. I'm not crying for them."

"Then who? Don't tell me you're-"

"The villains have their own circumstance. I cannot deny that. But ones my tears are falling for are the ones who cannot longer rise up; the ones who sacrificed themselves in order to save many, a few soul, or even just one survivor. I cry for the one who had to give up their dream of return just for the rest to get back. If the heroes are the swords and swords who will pave way for our future, those who gave up their dreams are the shields.

"They are certain of their no return. They knew it themselves. They had faith, not of returning but of victory. I'm crying because they can no longer go back.

"That is their own circumstance, which is why I cannot help but weep."

Random Leaf #1505

"It's not the soldiers who brought soul and tears to the battlefield."

"Are they the ones abandoned?"

"Not exactly. The ones who bring about great change to wars are the romantics. They are not armed with swords and bullets. With them are hopes and songs only they themselves could sometimes hear."

"Hope and songs?"

"If you cannot hear the music, my friend. You are not fighting the good fight."

Random Leaf #1504

"Yet, it doesn't work out for me. I'm not cut out for this. No matter how cliché it is, that is the truth."

"Have you considered trying again?"

"At this point, right now. Can I still try again?"

"Doesn't matter you think, as long as you beli-"

"The spark in me is long gone. That is the truth."

"You know, for someone who claims to be honest, you sure aren't being one, right now."

"I'm not lying."

"You know. Sometimes. There are moments when you bring out a spark."

"I know what you mean. Those are fleetings fits of madness. They are so brief and minute, I take them as myself joking."

"But they are sparks."

"Not enough to start a fire."

"Why? Do you want to start a fire?"

"Figuratively."

"Doesn't matter. Do you want to start a fire?"

"Sometimes."

Random Leaf #1503

"Should I apologize?"

"When does unconditional kindness ever require apology?"

"You will gain nothing from helping, right?"

"I guess, I feel good when help."

"Kindness in its own, especially when unconditional, is often times self serving."

"Should I apologize?"

"Be unapologetical."

"It will make me more misunderstood."

"Let them misunderstand. So long as you understand yourself, everything's fine."

"I hate being misunderstood."

"Why do you want to apologize?"

"I.. I just.. I.. I don't know."

"You yourself knows the reason?"

"I.. I.."

"You'll be more misunderstood if you yourself don't understand yourself."

"I want to be loved."

"But you are loved."

"I'm loved?"

"You don't seem to understand but yes, you are loved. Doesn't matter if there are those who misunderstood you. Doesn't mattet if there are those who hate you. Truthfully speaking, you exists because you are loved."

"But.."

"You are loved. And as long as you understand this. As long as you undetstand yourself, you don't need to apologize. Be unapologetic."

Random Leaf #1502

"What would you do if your desire to help caused someone to grieve?"

"Grieve?"

"I wanted to help someone yet things.. yet things didn't go as I expect."

"Are you looking to gain something from wanting help?"

"I don't know. I guess not. I just want to help."

"Has anyone ever told you you're kind?"

"I guess so, yeah. Some times, I think."

"So what do you want to do now?"

"I'm having doubts whether I should help the next time the same thing happen."

"Don't be. Don't doubt yourself. Continue being kind as always, or if you could, with more lucidity."

"Lucidity?"

"Just keep being kind. That's all."

"What if it happen again?"

"Doesn't matter. In a cruel world we live in, it is most precious to have kind soul than ones who are like who in their own doubt fails to shine."

"I don't get it."

"Just be kind. That's all."

Random Leaf #1501 IG

Those who are left are the once to carry the heavier burden.

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Those who remain bear the heavier burden.

Random Leaf #1500 IG

Keep faith.

Random Leaf #1499

You were never given a choice in the first place and yet you became what is necessary. The world will forgive you.

Random Leaf #1498

A hero apologizes for a deed he did not do. He couldn't save them.

Random Leaf #1497

The world will listen. The world will listen. The world will listen. The world will listen. The world will listen. Speak. Cry. Let out all what's inside and bottled. The world will listen. The world will listen.