Monday, September 30, 2024

Random Leaf #1613

"Does the heart need be tug to strum kindness?"

"Oh! So, we're going poetic now. Care to elaborate?"

"Imagine seeing a homeless man begging for food. You hear his stomach grumbling. You see his hands shaking. But you noticed he isn't too old. In fact, he is younger than your father. His muscles, arms and parts of him visible, is oddly shaped meant for a laborer. Yet he is there begging. Would you be obligated to help or have this certain hesitation. A question set in your mind, should you help him? Or if in case you decided to help after thinking hard in a very short amount of time, a lingering thought, should you have helped him?"

"A person who is fit for work is asking for help. Depending on the situation, maybe I would have helped the beggar. Or, maybe not. I don't know. Maybe I will. Maybe I won't."

"Imagine hearing a chat of two brothers. One clearly older, but not that old, and the other younger, but not that young. A highschooler and a gradeschooler. The older one promising a far better future for the two as long the younger one have to be patient and be resilient with whatever their facing. Let's make it more clear, shall we? The two are celebrating the younger one's birthday. Due to circumstance, they, or rather the older one, could only afford to have a single meal meant just for one person. The younger one asks why they only have one set of meal, the older one clearly lies and says  he isn't that hungry and goes on to give the who meal to his younger brother. You who overhears this conversation, given that you are in that certain scenario, you're allowed to, would you do something about it?"

"Does it mean I can giv-"

"This same given is also applied with the first one as well, regarding the homeless man. Now, tell me, between the two, to whom are you more inclined to be kind to?"

Sunday, September 29, 2024

Random Leaf #1612

"They were made unaware, to keep their innocent. Much like an empty slate of an untouched piece of paper, free of blemish and style. But what is it anyway except for it to be written upon. No lines nor letters could ever not hope to free it from ignorance."

"What did the paper say?"

"It asked what it's purpose is."

Random Leaf #1611

"Let's all make a scene. Everyone loves that. No record in history written without any form of extravagant. Be wild, be loud, be dramatic. That is what gets everyone's blood boiling."

"There is also beauty in silence. A welcoming feeling in the minute details. Don't deny those."

"What nonsense are you talking about?"

"A poem can both be written or said."

Saturday, September 28, 2024

Random Leaf #1610

One fuck you,
After another.

Is there anymore?
Come on.


Random Leaf #1609

"My first friend. My one and only friend. She was dying and the world called for a hero. Which one am I supposed to save first?"

"Do the right choice?"

"How can I choose which one's right when both are and if I do, I will feel ultimately in the wrong."

"That is a problem indeed."

"I can't abandon her. We promised to each other that.. that we'd go many places together. She's my first friend. When the world is beating me up with it's cruelty and sharp piercing glances of indecision to not help me, she was the only one who went by my side."

"Tell you what, if both options are right, why not pick the wrong one?"

"What?"

"There is always the devil. A hero's soul is.. is something that cannot be taken lightly. In simpler words, it is worth lot."

"What are you saying?"

"Let the devil help you. He will pay any price for something as precious as yours."

"No! I'd rather-"

Random Leaf #1608

No act of kindness, no matter small, go unrewarded.

Random Leaf #1607

No effort unnoticed.

Random Leaf #1606

Are they the
ones who love
but believe themselves
to be unloved?

Are they those
who knows much
more about love
yet hopes less?

Are they those
who refuses they
are in love
when asked

Yet in their
heart love overflows?

Random Leaf #1605

There exists love
And those who
Without any intentions,
yield to it.
They are romantics.

And there are
those who refuse,
those who intentionally
do not yield.
They are hopeless.

But who are
the hopeless romantics?
Are they, with
Intentions or without,
looking for love
that never exists?

Random Leaf #1604

I will not let you cry alone.

Random Leaf #1603

She dances in between tears.
Most elegant and smooth
Are her flow and rhythm.

Here and there, a few steps
Hence, she lets out a sigh.
Her gazed goes outward then in.

It was as if she's waiting
For someone to dance with her.
Oh, how I wish she'd cry for me.

Random Leaf #1602

"So what is this all powerful skill you unlocked?"

"It's called heart's canceller."

"Hearts canceller? That sounds powerful. What does it do? Is it like a passive, area effect aura? Like if a hostile creature gets close to you, their heart would cancel beating?"

"Actually, it's the other way around."

"Other way around? Further hostilities-"

"It stops my heart from beating."

"What?"

Random Leaf #1601

When you can't fly, I will give you the wind. Use it to lift yourself up. When you can't hear even your own voice, I will give you silence. Shout to your heart's content.

Random Leaf #1600

No effort futile,
no small act of kindness unnoticed.
The world notices,
The world recognizes.

Random Leaf #1599

"The heroes are never always heroes. They are people who actually did not dream big from the start. They are the ones who listened to stories. They are the ones who see the miracles in life. They are ones who see signs."

"Just all that?"

"There's one more."

"What is it?"

"They are ones who have to make choices."

"What? Like, they are in control?"

"No, but choices for themselves. They are the ones who have step up. It is never always their instinct that govern their action, that crazy cliché that their body just suddenly started moving. That's comic book heroes. The real heroes always have to choose. They have to decide."

"What are they choosing? Who to save first? What actions should they do first? What to do after?"

"Those are all a part of it. But the first thing they have to decide is whether they have to step up and brave challenges or stand down and in fear surrender."

"What? I don't understand what you're saying."

"To simplify, the heroes always have to choose to be one or not."

"No! That isn't always the case. It sounds like the heroes are fearful for their lives if that's how it is."

"That how it is. They just always mask it with a facade that their bodies started moving when in fact from the start they are fearful for their action. Or they have this alibis of we're not ready. But in fact, they are."

"That's just blasphemy to them."

"I only speak the truth."

"That isn't the truth. You're just making it all up to tarnish the heroes' names."

"It is. And I am certain that if you ask this to heroes they'd either deny it or they'd make it so that they're giving a great life lesson."

"Lies! And how can so sure, you aren't even a hero. Who are to define how heroes go with their.. With their actions.. And their choices?"

"I'm.. I guess, I'm someone who's good at observing people. Especially heroes. But I only mentioned two choices. There are many more after the first one."

Random Leaf #1598

"Why do you keep your heart close? You noticed it too, right? I know you do. You're better at reading people than I am. So why?"

"She's better off with someone else."

"Here we go again. How many times have you said that? Give it up already. That girl, I think, she's really in to you. Isn't she your type? Glasses, black hair, a warm attitude, beautiful smile, an old soul-"

"But I'm still in love with her. I can't fall in love with anyone else."

"Same excuse, different girl."

"Same love, same girl."

Friday, September 27, 2024

Random Leaf #1597

"You know some of the many stories they made up."

"I heard a few of them. Yes. What about them?"

"I made some of them up."

"You did what?"

"I know, right? Not even one is suspecting that I'm also part-"

"Those stories going around is giving a bad rep. Don't tell me-"

"Yeah. What's there for me to lose? I sort of-"

"What? You mean to say you didn't even help to clear up your name?"

"So what? There's for me to lose if I've already lost everything, am I right?"

"But they're hating you for something that isn't really true."

"I sort of like the hype. I feel like I'm Jes-"

"Stop! You're coming with me. We have to tell this to everybody."

"No!"

Thursday, September 26, 2024

Random Leaf #1596

"You know, when I recorded this song. I... I couldn't hear my voice."

"What?"

"This song is just so hard to sing."

"You wrote it, right? You're the one who-"

"I wrote it but the lyrics just cut deep and accompanied by the beats and rhythms, things just go deeper. I remembered having this panting attack of some sort when we first tried."

"So how did you-"

"My friend sang the song for me."

"What?"

"While having that attack, somehow, my friend went to my side and started singing."

"We can only hear voice in the music though. Is your friend ine if the backgrounds?"

"With that voice of his, it would be a disaster."

"What? Then what does it matter that your friend sang your-"

"While my friend sang, I joined in. The producer had this brilliant idea of having my friend first recording it."

"I thought you said-"

"It was awful. After they recorded him singing, they played it over my head piece while they recorded me singing."

"Then what happened?"

"I was able to sing it."

"So you mean to say, the times you go up the stage and you're singing this song. You doing all that with your phone and earphone-"

"Yes, I'm playing him singing my song."

"Is that how.. how do I put it.. is this really hard for you to-"

"To begin with, I dedicated the song to him right before it got recorded and released. He said it was, you know, unlike me, but yeah, that's just how I love him. He's like a real brother to me."

"So where's this brother of yours now?"

"He's.. he's inside my phone. Singing this one song I can't sing without him."

Random Leaf #1595

"God damn you!"

"Right? Right? I told you I'm going to make you cry."

"But not like that. Not like that. A marathon of sad anime's. Damn. First, Violet Evergarden, then Clannad, then Your Name-"

"Oh! But that was a good one."

"Yes, but.. damn you. Fine. Fine. You win."

Random Leaf #1594

"Don't be the little prince, okay?"

"Little prince?"

"Just promise me! Alright?"

"Okay, okay. I promise."

"You promise?"

"Yes, yes. I won't be the little prince."

Random Leaf #1593

"Be rememebered. Know now."

"What?"

"Be remem-"

"Yes, yes. What do you me-"

"Be rememebered! Know now!"

"You're not making any sense."

"Be remembered!! Know now!!"

Wednesday, September 25, 2024

Random Leaf #1592

"The walls."

"What?"

"The walls are breathing."

"What? The walls?"

"Can't you feel it?"

"What do you mean breathing?"

"No windows, no ventillations, yet we could feel the air."

"Must be from the entrance.. Hey, now. Don't go saying nonesense like that."

"The walls are breathing. Can't you feel it?"

Monday, September 23, 2024

Random Leaf #1591

"You're dying. You're seeing two silhouttes. You're vision is going blurry. You don't just feel tired. You're exhausted. The cold is catching up to you."

"It is. I get this chill feeling. You forgot to mention my eyes are heavy, despite being asleep and staying rested most of the day."

"Aren't you afraid?"

"Afraid of what?"

"Deat-"

"Yes, I am. But i know it isn't my time yet. I don't know how but I just know my body is battling this war inside me. Not mentally, of course."

"The flags has already been set. You can't see it, but it is there."

"The same with how inside me a war is raging. Me heating up just means on the inside I'm getting excited."

"You cannot win all battle. There are wars you simply cannot-"

"Doesn't matter. My body is fighting. The least I've to do is cheer it up."

"You aren't Garfield."

"But I do like some lasagna right now."

Saturday, September 21, 2024

Random Leaf #1590

"What happens to the hero when he's no longer needed?"

"He either have died as a hero. Or, by the order of the king, lived on as cage animal or died by execution."

"What?"

"Once his purpose is served what more is left for him? He trained all his life for one goal, to be a hero. Nothing more."

"Isn't he supposed to marry the princess like in the fairytales?"

"Princesses are married off to princes or to some fine lesser nobles. The hero never had that birthright. He is commoner. No noble, much more royalties, would want their children to be married to someone of lower class."

"He'll be given a title. That's how stories go."

"A title, yes. But it is still not a birthright. But enough of the hero's origin. The hero is expected to die for the cause and mission he is given. Nothing more."

"If he lives on?"

"Outside the title of a hero, he is a weapon, a living weapon, a monstrosity. With all the trainings he had to undergo and the many treatments to literally reform his very constitution, he cannot be called an ordinary person anymore."

"So how can he liv-"

"In some cases, the hero will either be given a heavy restriction so he can no longer use the power he has or he will be chained, locked up and imprisoned for the rest-"

"No!"

"As for the last option. If still the hero manages to survive all that or even try to escape from his doomed destiny, he will be executed."

"Why? Isn't he the hero?"

"People fear beasts and monsters. That is the truth. That is why we put up fences to surround our homes, cages and shackles to tame them. And if they're proved to be impossible to be.. chained.. domesticated, the only way to deal with them is execution. The hero will be killed."

"Is there no other-"

"That is the sole faith of the hero. It isn't a happy ever after as the children's tales, we're all taught of."

Friday, September 20, 2024

Random Leaf #1589 IG

"She promised the view would be beautiful."

"But isn't what you're seeing right now-"

"It is beautiful. I can't believe a place like this really exists."

"Wait, are those tears, tears of joy-"

"It's empty."

"What-"

"There's nothing up here."

"What do you mean nothing-"

"This place is beautiful but empty.."

"Are you blind? Can't see the-"

"She isn't here. She isn't here to see this.. this place with me."

"Aren't you glad you got here? This is what she wanted for you. You should be hap-"

"How can I be happy if I can't be with her?"

-----

A: She promised the view would be beautiful.

B: Isn’t what you’re seeing right now—

A: It is… beautiful. I can’t believe a place like this really exists.

B: Wait… are those tears? Tears of joy—

A: It’s empty.

B: What—

A: There’s nothing up here.

B: What do you mean, nothing?

A: This place is beautiful… but it’s empty.

B: Are you blind? Can’t you see the—

A: She isn’t here. She isn’t here to see this… this place with me.

B: You made it. This is what she wanted, remember? You should be… happy—

A: How can I be happy… if I can’t be with her?

Random Leaf #1588

"What? Where am.. The war! Where is everyone? Where I am? I have to go to.. Where am I?"

"Have you calmed down?"

"I'm sorry but where am I? I need to get back. Everyone needs me right now. You're not one of them, right?"

"I'm not."

"Good, then I.. No, I mean, I need to get back. Please tell me how to get back to-"

"It's fine now."

"What?"

"Everything's fine now."

"How can you- You're part of the enemy?!"

"Please calm dow-"

"No! Stay back! I'm warning you."

"It is safe here. No need to be cautious."

"Yeah! That's what happened to Aisha and Brooke as well. They let their guard down and.. and.. and that's how they.."

"Aisha and Brooke are waiting for you. If you'd just calm-"

"Shut up! You don't know them. You don't have the right to say their nameS. They're my brave sibling who fought valiantly for a greater cause. And to just easily speak their name."

"Aisha, Brooke, please come in here. You're little brother is a bit excited to see his family once again."

"What? Lie! This isn't.. real. This is lie!"

Random Leaf #1587

"This is it. You're finally here."

"Yes! This what I've always dreamed of. I'm happy that we're.. all... Where's everybody?"

"Haven't you notice it?"

"Notice.. Notice what? Where's everybody?"

"The stairs you used to climb here are the-"

"Wait.. Wait.. Don't tell me. No, no.. not like this."

"They're the dreams that they couldn't accomplish."

"Oh, I thought. That's fine. That's fine. For second there I thought you're going to say- Never mind. So, where are they? Where is everyone?"

"Don't tell me you didn't see the bodies on your way here?"

Tuesday, September 17, 2024

Random Leaf #1586: Orpheus Dark IG

"Why have you come back?"

"Her voice... once again, I can hear her voice. I know it isn’t real, sir. But I just feel it’s her. She’s there. But I can’t find her. I have to find her."

"That just explains how deeply you love her. There are phantoms, shadows, even voices—we sometimes see or hear things that hold very dear to us."

"But, sir... I don’t even know her. Her voice sounds familiar, but that’s it. I don’t know her."

"So that’s how it is."

"What do you know of this... this sickness—? Do you know where she is?"

"Don’t you remember?"

"Remember? Remember who? There it is again—I’m hearing her! She’s calling out to me. I need to find her!"

"You shouldn’t have turned your back on her. You were told of the consequences, weren’t you?"

"What? What do you mean by that, sir?"

"Things were going well, but you just had to doubt her."

"But I needed to be sure. I needed to be sure it’s really her."

"Wasn’t her voice enough?"

"I wanted to see her. I need to see her. Sir—sir, do you know where I could find her?"

"Have you not tried asking her to sing for you?"

"Wha—?"

"You’re a great musician. You were gifted by the gods with that unparalleled artistry—beats, rhythm, sound. What do they call it? Synesthesia, right? Or was it perfect pitch? Oh, whatever it is—you were blessed with the gift of music. You hear a voice... isn’t that voice beautiful?"

"Yes. Yes, sir. Like heaven’s gentle whisper. Definitely the true gift of the gods."

"Gods, indeed... So, this beautiful voice you keep hearing—why haven’t you asked it to sing?"

"Sing?"

"To sing for you. A voice only you could hear... maybe you could dance in delight to the music sung by that very voice."

"Sir, I... I don’t—"

"With one beloved by the gods—isn’t it obvious? Let her voice guide you. You shouldn’t be the one guiding her. You’ve never been to hell, have you?"

"Hell, sir? I don’t under—"

"You’ve no right to look at her, nor do you have the power to guide her back. But maybe... there is something. Your gift of music. Yet you failed to use it. You’re no guide, maestro—you’re a musician. Eyes are of no use to you; it’s your ears that matter most. And out of all your gifts, it’s the one you’ve least faith in. I’m disappointed in you, Orpheus. You should’ve let her guide you, while you strummed your strings or blew your flute. Her voice would’ve sung to you the greatest poem you could have ever created. But your doubt killed her."

"It’s not my fault!"

"It is, Orpheus."

"I have to find her! Where are you, Eurydice?!"

"It’s tragic—you blinded yourself right after you saw her get sent back."

"I wanted her to be the last thing I sa—"

"Pity. And now, a blind man looking for his lover. How can it get any worse than that?"

"Eurydice! Just hang on—I’ll find you!"

"Tell her to keep calling your name. And I know for a fact—no matter how close or far you get—the voice you hear will always stay distant. Even if you go astray or wander further away, you’ll never truly hear her. The voice will sound the same: that beautiful tone you can always distinguish, yet never reach."

"Eurydice!"

"Go on. Ask her to sing. This is the hell you’ve brought yourself into. At least, with her singing, you’ll have a moment’s reprieve. A desert in your own oasis—"

"Wha—"

"Or rather, an oasis in the desert you’re in. Welcome to Hell, Orpheus."

Random Leaf #1585

"He kept on repeating, no more, no more, no more. Suddenly, he stopped. He's supposed to be mumbling on gibberish and trivial stuffs. But after he looked anxiously left and right as if looking for something. Or rather looking out for something. He just stopped. The eerie quiet and the cold and horrific ambience of the lonely hall we were in didn't help much. My guts were telling me to just up and leave. Doesn't matter if I know the guy or not. That's what my instinct was telling me. When I tried to turn around, he placed his hands on my shoulder. It was damp from his cold sweat, but that wasn't important. His grip was so much different from what we thought of him. It was firm, shivering and strong. I wanted to shake his hold off me but I gave up when he suddenly spoke. His voice deeper yet more clear, and there is a sinister reverb to it. He asked where Desiree was. The heck do I know who he was looking for. I tried answering back but his grip suddenly tightened. I fell to my knees. His grip was that strong. It was painful. And that's why my sleeve is this torned. So where're we eating tonight?"

"Wait, wait, wait, wait. How the- That's it? I mean, that's your explanation why you came here dressed like that?"

"Yeah. I'm craving for steak."

"And.. and.. who's Desiree?"

"No clue."

"And where's Orphel? I thought he was coming too?"

"He went off to find that girl, Desiree, he was looking for. After letting me go, he just started mumbling, I'm coming for you Desiree, or something."

"What?"

"But I want fries too. Can we go somewhere with steak and fries?"

Monday, September 16, 2024

Random Leaf #1584

"Is it weakness to not pursue unnecessary evil?"

"Unnecessary evil?"

"Imagine seeing the people who bully gets bullied. It may sound nice and all. A little bit of karma and revenge done for you. But after a few bits of bullying of the bullies, I feel like I wouldn't want them to  keep receiving the same treatment they did to me."

"And you call that unnecessary evil? My friend, you just said what it's called. It's karma! Karma! That's how things work. You do bad things, don't expect nothing returning to you. As they always said, what goes around flies around."

"It's flies around goes-"

"Doesn't matter. What I'm saying is that, that is the proper punishment they'll receive for the things they did."

"But I wouldn't want to keep on suffering. I'd forgive them if they just sincerely apologize. That's all."

"No simple sorry would set the souls sent to hell free."

"But that's-"

"It is cruel, yes, but it is an evil that is necessary. Whether you want it pursued or not, it is not you who will decide."

Sunday, September 15, 2024

Random Leaf #1583: Icarus Untold IG

“Daedalus knew Icarus would die.”

“What?”

“Daedalus was never that smart to begin with.”

“But isn’t he renowned for his intellect? It may have been what led to his son’s death and all, but Daedalus was a genius—clearly ahead of his time.”

“No, it’s not that. He wasn’t as smart as people thought he was. If he were, he would’ve known his son would fly—and fall.”

“It was the boy’s fault, not the father’s. Daedalus warned him before their flight, but Icarus didn’t listen.”

“You don’t know the true gift of Daedalus, do you?”

“True gift? It’s his intellect. That’s the gift he has.”

“No, that isn’t it. Daedalus was a kind man and a gentle father. Any man locked up in a tall tower with only a young boy for company, in that time and age, would have fallen into sin or madness. But Daedalus didn’t.”

“Commit to sin? Just like Achill—”

“Love isn’t a sin. And that’s another story. The true gift of the so-called genius Daedalus is that he could hear whispers. He was good with his hands and great at following instructions—but that’s just normal for someone from a great family of craftsmen and leaders.”

“See? He’s from a great family. The genius got passed down—wait, normal? He’s renowned for inventing and designing many things! Did you forget about the labyrinth? And what did you mean by whispers?”

“Voices. Whispers that only he could hear.”

“Voices?”

“They told Daedalus what to do—and he followed diligently.”

“What the—no, that can’t be true. If you go by that, then Daedalus was like a visionary, a soothsayer—or one of the Fates.”

“No, it wasn’t the future he heard, but hints.”

“Hints? About what?”

“About what to do next. How his next invention should be, how intricate or simple the designs should look. The whispers even told him which ideas to keep to himself—and which to share with the world.”

“And that led to him getting locked up. That’s the catch, then? He must follow these voices, or else something terrible happens.”

“Not exactly. He could ignore the whispers, but things often didn’t end the way he wanted. So, most of the time, he just followed.”

“What?”

“One time, when he was baking a cake for his son’s birthday—”

“What? He replaced sugar with salt?”

“No, not that. He may not have been a genius, but he knew his way around simple things. The cake tasted delicious—except for the design the whispers suggested.”

“Icarus didn’t like the cake?”

“Daedalus thought Icarus would love a bird design on it. It was intricately made to resemble his pet bird.”

“Why would the boy hate it? It’s his pet!”

“The bird had left Icarus. He waited, hoping it would return, but it never did. Daedalus made toys and inventions to help his son forget, but the cake brought the memory back. Still, Icarus didn’t show dislike. He smiled and said it was delicious. When Daedalus asked if he loved the cake, the boy said he loved everything his father gave him.”

“He lied.”

“He didn’t. Icarus wasn’t a liar—he just didn’t want to hurt his father. The boy was gifted with empathy. He knew how hard his father worked. The memory of his lost pet couldn’t outweigh his father’s effort. But that’s not the point.”

“Okay, so the whispers gave hints like that. Too bad they didn’t tell him his son would die.”

“Actually, they did.”

“What? So he did nothing? You said the whispers weren’t like the Fates! If they knew, then they must’ve known the future! Why didn’t—”

“Daedalus didn’t have much choice. He even told Icarus about it.”

“The boy knew?”

“I told you—he was gifted with empathy. He knew the pain his father was hiding.”

“So you’re saying it was Icarus’s choice to die?”

“No. You mentioned the Fates earlier, right?”

“Yeah, what about them?”

“Icarus was meant to die young.”

“What?”

“That was his fate. It happened one night when Daedalus was visited by the whispers. He had been dreaming happily when he woke to their voices, telling him of his son’s death. Confused, half-asleep, he listened again—but they repeated the omen.
As any father would, he panicked. He began designing, inventing—anything to save his son. But the whispers insisted it was fate. He grew frantic, agitated. Then Icarus spoke.”

“This all happened in one night?”

“Not exactly. But close enough. For days, Daedalus grew quiet, pretending nothing was wrong. He told Icarus the king was simply demanding more work. He smiled, but his thoughts were consumed with fear.”

“It’s the gift of—”

“Empathy. Icarus saw through him. One night, Daedalus sat over his designs, his hands trembling, calloused, scarred with soot. The whispers urged him to stop. He knew there was no way out. He thought of his life—how long he had been a servant to a tyrant—and realized he would endure it all as long as his son was safe. That was enough.”

“But the boy’s fate—he’ll still die, right?”

“Daedalus wept. For the first time in a long while, he cried.”

“Such cruel fate.”

“Then he heard a voice—not the whispers, but his son’s. Icarus came and hugged him, wiping his tears with his little hands. He said three things: Don’t cry, Father. It’s alright. It’s not your fault.”

“Like—Good Will Hun-”

“Daedalus had an idea.”

“The escape plan?”

“No. If Icarus was to die, Daedalus wanted him to experience what he’d been denied all his life: freedom. If he must die, let it be by his own hand—but in a way only an inventor could grant. Grand, different, beautiful.”

“Madness?”

“No. Not madness. Haven’t you heard? When Icarus died, he died smiling—grateful to his father.”

“Daedalus told Icarus about his gift—the whispers. He told him he wasn’t a genius at all.”

“And?”

“Icarus disagreed, saying his father was the smartest, greatest man in the world. Daedalus smiled at his son’s remark.”

“Then what? Did Daedalus—”

“After a brief, wholesome moment, Daedalus’s voice changed. It grew cold, older, authoritative as he called his son’s name. The boy stood up and listened.
Taking a deep breath, Daedalus told him about his death. Of course, Icarus didn’t understand the word at first.
Daedalus mentioned the little bird Icarus once had. The boy remembered. He didn’t understand what a funeral meant, only that they’d placed the bird in a box and offered it a parting gift. He remembered giving it his second gold coin—the first he had kept for himself.”

“How did Daedalus explain death to Icarus?”

“He told him it would come with a gift. There would be no box—but Daedalus promised him two things: the sun as his gift, and wings so they could fly.”

“Icarus was overjoyed.”

“Daedalus forced a smile, but his teary eyes said otherwise.”

“What happened to Icarus’s gift of empathy?”

“He noticed. He hugged his father—tighter than ever before—and whispered the same words again: Don’t cry, Father. It’s alright. It’s not your fault.”

Random Leaf #1582

"He kept his promise. That is all."

"A promise? He left the country and betrayed everyone."

"That side of the truth didn't matter to him. He kept his promsie. To him, that's the only thing."

"Side of truth? What?"

Friday, September 13, 2024

Random Leaf #1581

"Tell me about this vision you saw."

"Do I really have to?"

"You don't really have to. But all I'm saying is, I'm interested about what you see. It's like you one of those people with visions and stuffs. Just like.. that hunch back guy. Notredame."

"Nostradamus."

"Yeah, maybe we could get a winning lottery numbers or something."

"It's not like I saw the future. It's more like a saw place. A place where only I don't exist."

"Like that animation series, Erased. I like that one."

"No, I mean. I don't know."

"Just tell me something."

"In the place I saw, my parents adopted my cousin. He was taking care of the family business. He's living in our old home, the one above the store. He took the empty room I left. He's with his own family. My sister, she comes home from time to time to check in our family business. She has our parent's room all to herself. Though it doesn't matter much. She has her own condo elsewhere. She's living her dream. Stocks exchange and business in her palm with a phone. I think she's taking care of a small dog. As for our parents, they are in the vacation house they bought. It's lot cozier than the one we have. They're enjoying themselves. They all had their fair share of problems, I think the same ones that we have, but they're doing much better. Much, much better compared to.. Compared to where we are."

"Cool, cool. Hey, wait. Hold on. What did you mean you when you said the room you left? I thought you said you never existed in that vision you saw."

"Yes, I didn't. I think it was somewhere in between my first or second year of collage that I died."

"What?"

Thursday, September 12, 2024

Random Leaf #1580

"His true marks of valor and glory are not the medals and well tailored cape and master crafted armor and weapons he have. It's the scars and bruises he have. Not to mention the chips on his sword, the dent on his shield and armor, the callouses on his palm, the burnt marks he have and many more."

"Those just make him look silly."

"So does his likeable voice and goofy mannerism."

"Hahaha, yes, he acts silly a lot of times when we're with him."

"That's just how he is. That's his kind heart that's letting loose. Have you seen his eyes?"

"His eyes? I.. I haven't noticed anything. His eyes are brown and that's it. Nothing special about them."

"Have you noticed anything unusual with his eyes? Like whenever he talks to you guys?"

"Now that you mention it, whenever we talk to him, he has this hard time trying to make eye contact. Whenever we find him sitting by the plaza fountain, he either gazes at the sky or a blank wall or a far off horizon."

"Eyes don't lie, little one. He has seen many great things in number and feat. Things probably he cannot forgot."

"Like that one time he saw two dragons mating?"

"Yes, two drago- What in the heavens!!"

Random Leaf #1579

"What if the hero arrives too late?"

"The hero will carry it as another burden he had to carry among the many mistakes and failures he did and failed to do."

"Then he is failure of a hero."

"You cannot say that to someone the had just saved. It is true the hero has his own ups and down but he's doing his best."

Random Leaf #1578 IG

"It's not about manifesting the miracles to happen. Miracles are more common than one would think. One just have to notice."

"What if I need the miracle now?"

"Miracles goes hand in hand with patience. According to a famous book everything were created in seven days, inlcuding rest. Not just one. If you pluck a budding rose before it even bloom, you will never see the rose. Same goes with miracles. One has to be patient"

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"It's not about manifesting miracles. They are more common than you might think. You just have to notice."

"What if I need the miracle now?"

"Miracles go hand in hand with patience. Everything was created in seven days—including rest, not just one. Pluck a budding rose before it blooms, and you will never see it. Patience is how miracles bloom."

Random Leaf #1577

"Let me tell you a secret, little one. The things we wish for; the things we hope for; and the things we pray for to happen, does not require faith."

"What?"

"The daily routines, the cliche and the things we are expecting to hapen without us ever thinking about it and we just get ready and accept. Those are the things that require faith."

"I.. I don't understand."

"There's this old legend about having faith and bringing an umbrella. The faithful ones already knows what would happen. And the ones who are hopeful, but are believers nonetheless, kept on praying."

Random Leaf #1576

"Don't tell me you're trying. You aren't."

"But-"

"But shit!! There is not a single thing, never one thing, you did that they can be proud of."

"I'm tryi-"

"You're not. You're not."

One Regret

His feet are looking down the cold busy city street. They should be trembling but somehow, at that moment, only his hands and chest are. He leans his back and settles comfortably on the handrail. He takes a deep breath as smoke magically comes out his mouth. He looks up the sky. The clouds, the stars and the moon are gazing back at him. But it isn't the far off things he is looking for. All he knows is, at that very moment, the skies are empty.

He look beside him. The cigeratte he puffed earlier is still burning but it has no more use for. It is the last thing he clearly remembers he kissed. He takes a deep breath and with all his might grabs the top of the railing behind him. He carefully pulls his exhausted body up. He feels as if the small yet comfortable edge he was sitting on is lot bigger that he now is standing.

He looks down and notices his feet. The tips of his toes are tightening by edge. This time they are the ones closer to ground. His ankles were used to long waits and standing in lines but not at this height. His ankles are firm yet they are trembling. His hands tighten their grip on the railings. The cold wind of the coming October is carassing the man's hair but he could not feel it. He could not feel anything at all. His emotions warps in a mixed feelings of fear, boldness, regret, hatred and grief. He smiles as he realizes he is for the first time, in his life, is experiencing madness.

The man looks forward slowly observes everything he can see far off and then he averts his eyes down the city streets. The man's eyes could see everything but they are only lines and colors. They are all formless, without meaning.

He slowly turn around. His hands are already relaxed. He isn't holding on to anything anymore. It isn't that he did not want to go see the ground get closer first that he turned around. He isn't afraid of that. He just wants to see if someone would come barging out the metallic gate he got in the roof top before he goes. He is hoping at the very least that someone he knows would come to see him; would come to speak to him; would come to hang out with him; or would come to stop him before he go. But much like the skies there is no one there.

The man closes his eyes and pushes backward. The wind suddenly rushes across his face. Memories of the past comes running across his mind. But that's how things usually go. When he returns to his senses he opens his eyes. The ground is much closer. But somehow his lips smiles. There isn't any regrets in his mind at that moment nor is there any sort of hatred nor grief. In his minds, he remembers a silly phrase he heard before. Suddenly, he regrets something.

"I should have done a backflip," are his last thoughts.

Random Leaf #1575

"Finally! You've realized it. How many good things would have happened if you weren't around."

"I'd.. I would have been just a memory and-"

"They're much better off without you. They would have been in a better state. They would have been better off without you. Their dreams fulfilled and they'd smile more. Not just the smile the put up for you. Yes! They're just forcing their smile for you!! Things can go better. And that's if you weren't here. Unfortunately, you came through. You existed until.. somewhere, sometime here at this point. Then things just keep going down hill. You helped with nothing. Sure there are few ups but those were meaningless. The sacrificed you so much glorified are trivial. The so few things you can be proud of are meaningless. They are all in vain. Worthless!! If only-"

"If only I died then."

"Yes!! Now you understand."

"There's no more hope, right?"

"Exactly!"

Wednesday, September 11, 2024

Random Leaf #1574

"You're back. So, what sort of dream are you going to talk about?"

"Well, I'm actually not here to tell a dream."

"It's not dream this time. Is it a girl? Don't tell me you're in love again? Nice."

"No, I'm not going to talk about a girl this time. Although-"

"Is she kind? Have you talked to her? What is she like? Does she smell like the sun?"

"What? I guess, it's been a while since we've talked about a girl I sort of like."

"Yeah, it's been I don't know a week? A few days? You're always in love, or something."

"But I don't-"

"I know, you're that hopeless romantic type, right?"

"What? Hopeless roman.. Never mind that, I'm not hear to talk about a girl this time."

"Yeah, but is she cute though?"

"They all are."

"Keep this up and you'll get that harem king title yourself."

"Oh, shut up."

"So what's it about this time?"

"Everytime when I go to bed-"

"So it's about dreams then."

"No, not dream. Let me finish. This sort of happen almost every night now. I think it has been, I don't know, since the start of this year?"

"This year? The start.. so it's about 9 months now."

"More or less. Whenever I go to bed, there is this recurring thought of me dying."

"So this girl you like, is her smile beautiful?"

Random Leaf #1573

"You know you had their hopes up from thr start, then you blew it all up."

"I guess, I did had them hoping."

"They're embarrassed that you're related to them."

"I'm a bit embarrassed as well. But I already know they are. I can see it in their eyes. You know eyes don't lie, right? Especially, to those who know the secret."

"You knew? If you knew, why didn't you do something about it? They're expecting so many things from you. The least you can do is try. At the very least, try. Go get yourself cleaned up, wear decent clothes, fix yourself-"

"It took me a great deal finding who I really am. And you want me, for them, to give up who I am?"

"What? No, that's not what I-"

"For many years, I did my best to be who they want me to be. I never want to be like that. I just want to write poems, I want to draw sketches, I want to paint, I want to tell stories. I want to be an artist who make life. But.. but that's not what they want. That's not what they want for me. I also want to fall in love. No one noticed it, right? I, too, want to love but because they're expecting so much from me, I can't. I had to give up on my dreams. It's because I had to give something in return. Of what they gave me. It's me giving back. It's me paying my debt to them. I need to show them my gratitude. And.. I'm not supposed to complain. I'm not supposed to complain. And now that they no longer need me. Now that too much time have been lost. What am I supposed to do? What can I do? It's too late for me. I know that you know it, right?"

"I didn't know. I just want you to go take a bath and, you know, fix yourself, your appearance. We're going on a family dinner, don't you remember? We're having a reunion. We're eating out tonight. You can't enter if you're not suiting up. But I didn't know you've been bottling.. quite a few things."

"They're paying, right? It's free food where we're going?"

"Yeah but that's not what's import-"

"You should've said that right from the start. Give me a few minutes. I'll go get ready."

Monday, September 9, 2024

Random Leaf #1572

"Why do I have this strange feeling that the world does not take kindly to those who refuse to yield?"

"We are all art in constant change. To put in analogy, we are like dancers, and the world is the instructor to our choreography. All our movements as instructed is formed and molded through the many millenias, eras and timelines the world had seen and been in. Not to mention the world is also a very strict teacher. Tell me, what is our knowledge and understanding compared to what the world knows?"

"It's not like-"

"Minute, trivial, irrelevant."

"But won't there be any progress if things just stay the same."

"True and that is where those who refuse to yield comes in."

"Doesn't it contradict-"

"The world is strict but is still a teacher. The world open to challenges."

"Challenges?"

"Those who refuse to yield, as you mentioned, must prove they aren't minute. They must show the world they aren't trivial and irrelevant. They have to tell the world the are worthy for refusing to yield."

"What does the world do?"

"The world is an instructor, a teacher. The world is strict but it will listen."

Random Leaf #1571

"Given the chance, would you forgive the world?"

"What wrong did the world do to me?"

"You'd be telling a lie if you say there's nothing wrong that happened to you."

"Yes, I won't deny that but what wrong did the-"

"How can you say that after all the cruelty and evil that had happened to you?"

"The world is-"

"Don't say that. Don't you say that senseless thing you always say. It sounds nice and all but let's be real. The world is cruel."

"I am not of this world, so are you and everyone else."

"Here we go again-"

"There are certain kind of kindness that are rarely understood. And there are certain kind cruelty that are not wrong, to begin with."

"But there are cruelty that is wrong. You can agree to that, right? Right? So based on your logic, there are some things that the world did to you that is wrong, right? Right?"

"What wrong did the world do to me?"

"Can't you.. Wait, what did you say earlier?"

"The world is-"

"No, not that. What did you mean not of this world?"

Thursday, September 5, 2024

Random Leaf #1570

"Tell me the short answer, why did you not go after her?"

"She isn't for me."

"Your eyes tell otherwise. They glow when you see her, not far off. And when she's near, I am certain I'm not the only one who noticed, that you keep glancing at her."

"I'm just like that with everyone I'm unfamiliar with. I think?"

"Your voice gets more gentle and playful when she's near."

"Am I not a gentle and playful person? It might be just a coincidence but that's just I am."

"And your actions, no matter how much you want it to go unnoticed, you act differently when she's around."

"It's just my personality with some people and others. That's just how I am. And thank you for pointing out my silly antics. I never noticed them. I'll try to be more mindful next time."

"What.. what are you.. You keep on denying it. It's pointless now, she's already happy with someone else."

"Then I'm happy for her."

"Did you even love her?"

"Did I even love her?"

Random Leaf #1569 IG

"But to begin with, who were they?"

"They are me from a different universes."

"What?"

"They are me fro-"

"No, I heard you the first time but what do you mean?"

"They are me-"

"We're going with universes and timelines now?"

"Yes."

"Surely, you're playing with me, right?"

"No, they really are me from-"

"How many glasses did you have?"

"This one is my eighth one."

"You're drunk, my friend."

-----

B: Wait—who were they again?

A: They’re… me. From other universes.

B: What?

A: They’re me from—

B: No, I heard you. But what do you mean?

A: They’re me—

B: We’re doing timelines and multiverses now?

A: Yes.

B: Surely, you’re joking.

A: I’m not. Also… this is my eighth glass.

B: You’re drunk, my friend.

A: I’m… not drunk!

B: Right… sure. You’re already drunk, my friend.

Tuesday, September 3, 2024

Random Leaf #1568 IG

“Tell me something.
Is this true?”

“What is?”

“Would a hero save someone precious to them...
even if it meant sacrificing the greater good?”

“Does the hero know he’s a hero?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean—
is he a hero for everyone,
or someone who only calls himself one?”

“Someone who only—”

“Someone who only calls himself one,
a self-proclaimed hero—
a hero who bears the name only for himself,
not for everyone else.”

“And does that matter?
Whether he knows what he is or not?”

“It does.
A hero for everyone weighs every consequence.
Though only human, he acts with reason—
often at the cost of his own peace.
Sometimes he commits an injustice—
to a few, or even to himself—
because selflessness defines his sense of heroism.”

“So he’d give up something...
or someone dear to him...
for the greater good?”

“He would.
Not without regret,
not without consequence—
but he would.”

“And what of the others you mentioned before?”

“The other two—
the hero of his own story,
and the one they call the knight.”

Random Leaf #1567

"You know, you can always get back at them whenever you want to."

"That's not who I am. I'm better than that."

"Yet the hand gripping your sword is shaking. I can hear the blade hitting the side of your sheathe. You're mad and you're certain you can easily have your revenge. Still you hold back."

"I must be better. If I give in, the cycle will just continue. I must end it with me."

"You know, that's not the only way."

"What do you mean other way?"

"You have the power to do so. You may keep trying to deny it but-"

"No."

"Your hand continues to shake. Or tell me, is it your hand that's trembling or is it your sword? No matter how you do it your way, this cycle you say, it won't end. It's funny how you mention it ending with you but isn't it just the same as saying, 'I'll have none of it.'"

"What are you-"

"I'm saying that you're excluding yourself just because you feel absolutely terrible to be part of them."

"Feel terrible? Wait, that's not-"

"Now that you mention it, you saying, you're better, is not about being a better person but actually saying you're above them and the rest are simply beneath you."

"That's not what I mean."

"Then tell me, why don't you be person they need?"

"Vengeace isn't the answer."

"There you go again hiding behind that silly philosophy of yours. I am certain that it's a lie. It's either you think so highly of yourself for you to be concerned of others or you're just that afraid. This is the reason your hand is shaking, right?"

Sunday, September 1, 2024

Random Leaf #1566

"I never imagine not getting thanked after helping someone feel awful."

"Your intention is to help, right? And help you did. Is there a need to be recognized?"

"Yeah but I still feel as if I'm worthless without being thanked. I feel like I'm just a tool. I guess you could say being thanked is some sort of being recognized of a job well done or something. Even though I only intend to help, it wouldn't hurt them if they could at least say thanks."

"Heroism is a thankless job. It is often associated with duty and task that seldom heroes gets any recognition despite all the things they've done."

"But I'm no hero and that small task can't be compared to what heroes does."

"You said you wanted to be a hero. Despite how things are, at the very least, you now understand."

"But don't they get sad about it?"

"There will be a point when recognition became trivial to the heroes. Keep to your intentions, nothing more. Be kind because you want to be. Be a hero not because you want to be recognized but because you wanted to be one."

"But when I do become one, I want the world to recognize me."

"Is that why you want to become a hero?"

"I want people to thank me. I want people to recognize who I am."

Random Leaf #1565

"So this unrequited love yours, this is by choice, right? Or you just haven't had that certain courage, or rather, that spark of madness, that'll push you to ask her. You know she has many admirers. Any one of this day, you'll-"

"Stop, you don't have to tell me about it. I'm keeping it out of my mind."

"Wait, what? You're seriously not planning on trying?"

"I.. I guess, I won't. I love this idea of being in love but isn't love about bonds? I can't say that first sight love are true but I supposed they're just skin deep, and nothing else? I know many will disagree with I have in mind but that's just it. I can be in love with her.. Should I even call it love? I admire her for her beauty, her intellect and whatever I can see or hear about her but that's just it. I don't know much about her. And for me to be in love with her is like.. I don't know. Like finding a simple pebble.. wait, she wouldn't want to be compared to a piece of rock, it's too simple. I, myself, wouldn't want to be compared to one as well. Let's say a flower. She's like a flower in the side of a road. She stands out but that's it. I'd admire her for being there but that's all."

"Why not talk to her?"

"As you've said, I haven't yet got that spark of madness that would let me. In more simple term, I'm not that courageous."

"That's a lie, right? You're the bravest person we know when it comes to speaking out your mind and heart."

"Truth be told, it's a facade I had to put up. I'm glad that it's working."

"Why though?"

"I've read somewhere two things when it comes to love, first is not to love someone unready and half-baked. You'd best be prepared when you do. The way you see her now is probably the best days of her life. And if in case, you decide to take her away, can keep up with the challenge of letting her keep that smile she has or even go beyond. If you can't, then the answer is no."

"It's not always about that. In wedding vows, couples always say, in sickness or in health. Or whatever the vows are. You'll be facing life's up and down together-"

"I can't imagine seeing her like that. And I'd rather not see her not smile or worst, be the reason why that genuine smile cease. I can't have that. In short, I guess, I'm not yet ready."

"You could at least get to know her, at least."

"I'm good. Just seeing her happy right now, is making something inside my stomach go fluffy and warm."

"Even if she finds someone else?"

"Yes. Sad to say, I'll be happy if she finds happiness in someone else's arm. But that's just it, time to move on. One of the advantages of unrequited love."

"Sounds like a tragic comedy."

"It is. Unrequited love aren't supposed to have any commitments."

"What of those who committed themselves but their love remains unrequited."

"It's no longer called unrequited love. It's called unconditional love. A love more painful, easily shattered, yet the strongest and most resilient."

"How can you kno-"

"Maybe I'm committed to someone else. I think?"