And to what end does writer keep on writing? It's a given they want to be heard but I, for one who considers himself to be, would not like a conversation. I want to be heard. I want to speak and I want people to listen, so I write.
But I feel it shouldn't end there. I doubt my abilities could even write an opus but if perhaps I could, by sheer chance, if writing need one, maybe I would write one. I want to heard. But not just be heard, I want to change people. I want to be understood. I know it's my wishful thinking that is saying this grand scheme but I do. And with this limited ability I have, I first need to understand before I could be understood. Just like alchemy, right? Equivalent exchange, or something.
But is that it? And for what is to come, I have faith that not everything I will say or write will be understood, heck I believe people would even get mad at the things I will one day write and say. And that is because two things, my limited understanding and ability and the nature of oppositions. This would in turn call for an argument, then a debate which ultimately in essense is conversation. I don't like talking to people, have I already mentioned that?
But it is conversation that leads to understanding. So I guess I have to endure through it. I need to be understanding for the world too to understand me. But I just wish that would be the case. Often times, as I've mentioned already, the nature of opposition would lead to always having an argument and thus misunderstand will be something that is absolute. Close minds will always make misunderstanding something like a law, an absolute, as I've mentioned already. This can be dissolved, dis.. disapproved with a conversation, but having opposite ideas with no inclination to understand the otherside would always yield the same result, misunderstanding.
How can I overcome this? Or maybe this is something that cannot be overcome but something we must live with.
We have to accept that what's to someone is right to everyone else, there will always be someone who opposes this. Probably due to circumstance, a limited understanding or ability or a far wider understanding of things. This cases will only be explained if we would all just be heard. Not simple by speaking or writing but to be given a chance to be heard and understood. A thief stealing food to give to his starving neighbor is doing a bad thing but is he evil? Is good man doing good things just to feel that certain sense of high when he does good things truly good? If we can just know and understand one another maybe having a conversation would actually be a good thing.
But as I mentioned twice already, I hate conversing with people. i just want to be heard and so I write. That way I wouldn't have to argue and I don't have to rack up what little energy I could spare my brain just to understand someone. But this wouldn't make me a good writer, would it?
It would paradise if I could write and people would just nod and agree with I say. Buy growth won't exist with that, I am very certain with that. And just a heads up, I am not a good writer. Let's establish that.
But I do love to writing. I like hearing the voice inside my head while making a subtitle with my fingers and the keyboard, or at times with my pen and paper. In essense, I feel like having a conversation with myself without growth and or having a Ted Talk or a speech inside my mind. And everything just seemed right and perfectly fit. But of course, I could disagree with the voice inside my head but I am glad because it would be too harsh, cruel or painful when other tell me of my mistake. Yes, opposites to exists everywhere and often times when paired with emotion results to heated argument and in turn to more misunderstanding.
If people could talk more calmly maybe people would have more open mind to understanding one another.
