Random Leaf #1896

i wanted to cry at yiur funeral

but i know for a fact it will be for the wrong reason.

i know you died,

I got sad about it.

I know it's a very big deal and all

but what made my dam of eyes

to almost unable held river overflowing

was be denied of pallbearing.

i recalled how strong i was,

i claim on my own the titles of

mountain shaper and tree feller for the

mischivious misdeeds I did once or so more

and this not counting signs to measure strength

me holding your hands

or our arms entwined as we climb up stairs

or simply walking through small cramp pathways.

I can do manu things,

I can do all things

and right when I want to simply show

to you

for one last time how strong I.have become,

I cannot.

I got denied of this whim of mine

to show case my stremgth,

to show to everyone how strong your grand child is.

I got denied to carry you one last time

and this is what made me cry.

I have accepted you're gone forever,

but i cannot for the life accept it,

with teary star eyed,

that you can't tell the world

for one last time strong your grandchild have become.

maybe it isn't my desire to show my strength,

maybe it's just me wishing for one last time to carry you.