Random Leaf #1677

And you know why

I have mixed feelings about her?

Don't say that I'm in love with her,

that's the short and simple answer,

I'm conflicted about it,

it's the truth though

I can't say it is the whole truth.

Let me say this with a

Breath held with secrets,

In some reality,

In some far off universe,

Truth is,

In one of those distant place,

I killed her.

It isn't me, me,

but it is me but not me.

Which is why I am

conflicted.

Don't ask me if in another

I married her,

because I actually did.

Obviously.

But there are two me's

that I saw.

Of course,

the place I married her

isn't just one,

or two.

I only saw two of them.

One is where we're struggling.

The other is wherr we're living our dreams.

Odd enough,

In those three instances

I mentioned,

twice I married her

and another I took her life,

in all those times,

the many she's,

that isn't her, obviously,

is actually smiling.

It wasn't even a forced one at that.

It was not a facade.

It was a genuine smile.